Please Don't Eat Me!

One Month

2010-10-25T15:40:00.002-04:00

Hey all... It's me, yea.. it really is! I am in fact alive, just in case you were wondering!

I've given up all hope on blogging. I really try. I've been doing it for 2 years and I'm tired. I'm not sure how people blog every day, 3 times a day.. I guess the $$ is worth it for them. Not so much for me for the peanuts (literally) I get from it.
I lost my motivation for sure. I'm not sure how I will get it back, but if it does come back, so will I...

However, I am still floating around there, commenting when I can. I miss you all very much.

New York Part 3: Morning, Noon, & Night

2010-09-25T18:10:00.028-04:00

Hey everyone! Happy weekend!! Hope you are all having a fabulous weekend so far, I know we are over here.. it's been hot as anything so far this week and I am hoping this nice weather continues for the next couple of weeks! Summer can't die yet!!
So i have to tell you about the other best part of the weekend - our night out. It was a really really fun time! We went a bar that was within walking distance of our hotel, which was a great thing. No money spent on cabs!

Where should I start? After the tons of pizza we consumed, we made tasty adult beverages. My friend Jillian picked these cutesy cosmo glasses up at Christmas Tree Shop (I'm not sure if any of you have one near you??)

They were perfect for serving up pretty pink Cosmos. My friend's had these in multiple quantities, I had Jillian make me a weak one. I'm a lightweight. What can I say??

We also decorated the hotel room! Ok, all we did was put cute little SATC pics up on the sole picture in the room.

Doesn't the bride look soooooo cute??

We also made her wear a nice pretty pink scarf to symbolize one of her last weekends as a single lady!

Then I went and got ready in MY room (we had two nice rooms!). I took a shower in the "heavenly shower". Ohhhhhhh it was heavenly indeed! The shower had dual shower heads.. I'm not sure what those were for- but it did feel pretty good!
(I didn't take a pic of the shower.. sorry! But you can see how lovely the whole bathroom is!)
Here is a pic of my dress and the bag that I bought from a street vendor. There was no name name brand on it, but it was only $10!!!!! What a great purse! I needed a bigger one, and I got my wish! It's a cute giraffe print with purple strips.. what a good deal!My dress was a good deal too- only $26 at Charlotte Russe. My only issue was that I should have added a hook and eye closure on it before I wore it out. The dress was REALLY fitted in the bust- and the zipper slipped more than a few times! Good thing my hair is so long, it covered up any indecency!

Now Christina pointed out that my legs are nice and tan. Ah yes.. they are! More like ORANGE! GAH!!!! I am a victim of Sunless Tanning Lotion. They NEVER work on me! I have tried almost every single one out there, (besides the uber expensive ones that is!) but they all turn me orange.

My big confession is, I have been going tanning. PHEW. Got that off my chest! I have gone a few times and I get tan fast when I do go..sooooooo let's all cross our fingers that I don't die of cancer any time soon ok?? (I never claimed to be a perfectly healthy minded individual at ALL times!!!)

We had a LOVELY night. I can't remember the name of where we were.. but it was nice. We had our own table at the upstairs bar. The other ladies consumed lots of shots!! (look for the pics on Facebook!) I didn't bring my camera with me, but they did and we got some nice ones! There is a picture of me standing outside of Forever 21, I'll try to get that one soon so you can see it! I didn't drink alot.. my reason being was that I wanted to be able to eat French Toast for breakfast and if I am trashed or hung over, I can't eat carbs, they come right back up!

We did not go to bed until 5 AM! WHO WAS I???????? I'm usually getting UP at 5 am! But alas, my eyes snapped open at 8:30. ARGH!!! We didn't go and eat until almost 10, I'm usually eating breakfast at 8:30!! I was super hungry.. LOL. We went to Brooklyn Diner for some eats....................... And we LEFT! There was a minimum of $15 PER person!!! Soooooo you couldn't even get the cheap meal at brunch?? Which was $8 Cheerios and $4 orange juice.We almost felt bad until we saw this place.

Suzanne got hot chocolate! Look at that whipped cream!!!
Here was my breakfast..... OHHHHHHHHHHH my God!!!! This was the best French Toast I have had in a LONG time! Plus it was only $11! Which in my book, is still expensivo, but.. much cheaper than the $18 dollar French Toast at Brooklyn Diner!

I had mine with turkey sausage- soooo good. I loved it! Can you tell???

So anyway- that was most of the New York trip in a nutshell- well at least the appropriate parts of it! I hope you liked my NY trip round up!

I'll be back soon, I have some food stuffs that I wanted to share with you too! Hope you all have a great Sunday!!!

New York Part Two: Pizza & Pleasure Things

2010-09-21T20:55:00.022-04:00

Whooooooaaaa Nelly.. what the heck am I talking about? Well, you asked. I delivered. A post with actual pictures. I'm sorry to leave you all hanging! Haha.. I meant to do some last night, but I just got carried away at home, doing... nothing. I was resting!!! I am still in recovery from all the excitement, but I'll get there. It's amazing how now that I am older, it takes me twice as long to recover from events than before.. ohhhh the joys!
So.. you want to see a few things.. like the food I ate and what I wore right? Well, we'll start there!

What did I eat?

Saturday:
Dunkin Donuts. Bagel, egg, & cheese. Greasy. And disgustingly good. It was just one part of the grossly good food we had.. No picture! I ate it too quick!

Saturday Afternoon:
I ate half a chicken fajita wrap from some little deli across the street from the hotel. It was ok- the guy didn't warm it up- so blah. I ate chips and dip to make up for it.

Also consumed: A Magnolia cupcake, cupcake. At the Bleeker St fair that we stopped at during the SATC tour. It was delicious!

Later that night- we had pizza! This was the best pizza I've had in a LONG time. Maybe it's because I haven't had pizza in forever either.. and I was starved of pizza-ness..

The pieces were huge! But I still ate two of them. And two more at 3 am when we got home. Let's just say, I was busting out of my dress.. and it wasn't just because my boobies are big!

So my favorite part of the SATC tour was stopping at the Pleasure Chest. So I'm going to warn you, if you have a weak stomach, stop reading now! If you are like me and have the sense of humor as a 15 year old boy... get ready to laugh hysterically.

(we were not allowed to take pictures inside the store- but no matter- you see these and get the idea!)
Some sights that were seen inside the store.. a "c*m rag". It was a "dish towel" labeled as something one would use to clean oneself. We each bought one. LOL

Then there was the man inside the store the with the uber short shorts...................... he had a little something something hanging out...Sarah, Tanya, and I saw him.. we just about died! (Imagine forced whispers and shocked small gasps while elbowing each other and trying not to scream in horror.)

I saw loads of dildos, some that should not go ANYWHERE. One was the size of a NASA rocket. WHERE DOES THAT GO?????????!!!!!

Lots of ladies were buying things and I don't think they realized that they wouldn't be able to be inconspicuous about it either.. Because of the stores no return policy they need to make sure you know what you are buying.... so they take it out of the box, wave it around, tell you how to use it....

So we left, after touching and poking each other with almost everything. What can I say? We are like little boys. Ha!

We headed back to the hotel to get ready for the night.. The following pictures are pics I jacked off my friend. I hope you like!!!

Well those are just two of the pics.. I'll be back more tomorrow or Thursday with some more.. : ) I hope you liked them!!!!

New York, New York: Part One

2010-09-20T10:21:00.003-04:00

Part One has NO pictures. In a tired, still slightly hungover stupor forgot my memory card reader at home. So I want to give you a slight update on the weekend, then tomorrow I'll include the pictures from the weekend.

New York for Hannah's big bachelorette party....

Highlights:
1. hardly any traffic! 4 hours to drive there, 4 hours to drive home. Perfect!
2. "cheap" rooms.. in New York, cheap is relative.. they cost $389.00 a night. Divide that by 6, we were doing pretty good!
3. I saw my boss as soon as I stepped out of the car. She was just as shocked to see me as I was to see her!
4. SATC tour. So much fun!!!
5. Sex toy shop. Dildos. Lots of Dildos. 'Nuff said!
6. Seeing a couple of B-list celebrities!
7. Pizza, pizza, pizza!!!! I feel like I consumed more pizza this weekend than in the last year!
8. Bags, bags, and more bags! I bought one for $10!!!!!! No "brand" on it, but it's SO cute! And the perfect size bag to hold everything!
9. Dressing up and looking HOT HOT HOT!
10. Dancing in the bar!
11. Playing truth or dare in the bar (I learned alot about my friends LOL!!!!!)
12. Getting back to the hotel at 4 am!!!! Seriously, WHO WAS I?!
13. Going to brunch at the Brooklyn Diner in Times Square and walking out after we realized we couldn't pronounce half the menu and an omlette cost $17... Unless the eggs were made with gold dust????
14. Seeing the country's largest Forever21 in Times Square! MECCA!!!!! Heaven!!! I was home! I didn't get to go in, but I peered in the windows at 2 am and drooled!

Well that's it for now, I have to get back to work.. I'm so tired!!!!!

The Missing Link

2010-09-13T19:55:00.015-04:00

Holy cow, it's back to the daily grind again! Another long week is in the works.. work is busy.. it's the end of quarter, so basically unless we are dead we have to come in to work. Of course, if we are dead, they may want us to be brought back to life to be in! But I think I'll survive it! Haha!

So the last couple of weeks I have been really really focused on building up strentgh- which is always a good thing.. right?? I've been working hard, and I can feel my muscles gaining strenth and I'm toning up- which is always a good thing right?

Not for this body! I forget that I gain muscle REALLY fast and if I don't also do cardio and YOGA. I bulk up. Yepppppp Mama don't wanna be no bodybuilder! I want to be toned and sexy. Not big and bulky. My jeans have been fitting tighter- and even though I haven't gained any weight.. I can feel my legs and my bum getting bigger. What gives??

The missing link is my yoga mat. I have been slacking hardcore on the one thing that brings me back down to earth and elongates my muscles at the same time! My yoga program of choice? Mark Blanchard's Progressive Power Yoga.

I have the video tapes (hello 2004!) and this is literally my favorite yoga video ever. I have tried many through Netlfix (hello 2009!) and following yoga pod casts online (hi 2010!). But no matter what I do, I don't feel pushed, prodded, and more sexually harassed in a workout like I do with Progressive Power Yoga.
Yes, Mark Blanchard thinks he's God's gift to yoga, yes, he breathes funny and it makes you think he's &*^%$#@#$%^ off, and sometimes the pace is slow. But if you connect your breath to the mat- good God it's a good workout! Everytime I do a full workout, it's like I just ran a marathon. It hurts so good!!!!!

So anyway, I'm going to be getting back to my dear yoga mat so I can stretch out these big muscles I have now. :) Plus adding in at least 2 cardio workouts a week, rather than keep doing the Jillian Michaels and the Core Fusion workouts by themselves.

I just got this DVD today in the mail- leftover from my $50 gift card from work.. I read all the reviews on it and decided this would be a good choice for some booty shaking cardio! Boy was I right! Once I have it down pat, I will, I swear on my life be taping this one out for you. It was SO much fun! And such a good workout! I loved every second of it. It was HARD and you will sweat like crazy but Quenia does an amazing job cuing the moves and she is really fun. But I will be totally honest, either the camera does add ten pounds, or they did some serious airbrushing on the DVD cover- cuz she is so curvalicious! I loved it! She knows how to seriously shake that booty!

So tonight, I was having major technical difficulties with my phone so I was on the phone with the phone company for FOREVER. I had planned on making salmon and green beans. But after I got off the phone with them, my issue unresolved! I was fed up but just kept it moving.. I heated this up!

I found this dinner at Whole Foods and I remember eating tempeh last year and absolutely hating it- but I was willing to go out on a limb and try it.

I added more BBQ sauce to the dish, just to be on the safe side- you know.. drown it in condiments!!

But this was excellent. The quinoa gave the dish a little extra chew- and I could barely taste the tempeh. No stinky feet taste. No terrible texture.. I was impressed! Now if only I could safely make this for myself, I'd be all set!

Well I hope you have an excellent Monday night! I'm heading to bed soon! Thanks to those who did comment on my "fashion" post! I'll be doing another one this week. I have a bachelorette party to go to, and I need to decide which dress to wear to go out "whoring and drinking" (a reference to a musical.. anyone guess???)

GOOD NIGHT ALL!!!!

How To Wear Yoga Pants

2010-09-10T21:15:00.016-04:00

Happy Friday everyone! I'm just hanging out right now.. 9 pm on a Friday, and I am hitting the hay very soon. It's very hard to believe that a few years ago, I would be taking a shower getting ready to go out right now.. I feel so old!! Maybe I'm just more responsible :)

So I haven't been cooking at all this week, I have been going the old frozen dinner route- shame shame!! But at least they are the good ones and not Hungry Man or something..
Peanut and I went to the store tonight to pick up some stuff for my momma and I found these little doo-dads- Dark chocolate soy pudding cups.

They looked so yummy! I was excited to try them.. These are dairy, gluten, and casein free and are sweetened with beet juice and have added fiber with chicory root. Pretty darn healthy! I tried one when we got home.. it was "ok". It had a bit of a fruity flavor and less of a chocolate flavor. These are whipped, so it was very light and fluffy, so maybe that might have had something to do with the off flavor.

Since I don't like to waste food, I'm still going to eat them!
The other snack I picked up.. oh goodness. Can I even tell you how much I *love* plantain chips!?! Seriously they are the freakin' bomb! The chips I grabbed are sweetened with honey.. more of a dessert than a salty snackie.. So you could say I was eating dessert all night tonight!

Well, no one asked for it.. But... presenting a fashion like post! I have a serious addiction to Forever 21. Katie, you feel my pain girl! F-21 is a MUST to buy trendy goods up!!
I'm not a fabulously trendy person, but I usually go for a classic, not trashy look. Tonight, Peanut and I were going food shopping. Where we shop, one can find a few different types of people. Ghetto fabulous moms who should be at the club and not food shopping with their children. Or girls with flannel pants and their boyfriends hoodies. I'm not trying to trash anyone, but go to the store at 8:30 pm and you KNOW you know what I'm talking about!

I hit somewhere in the middle with this.. Black yoga pants by Express, Black flip flops by Payless, Bra cami top by Express, and a striped silky belted cardigan by Forever 21. It creates an "effortless chic" look that I love.. it says "I didn't try too hard, but I still look human". (I look a little boobalicious in this picture!)

Well, that's it! I'm off for the night.. let me know if you thought my attempt at a fashion post was a flop or I get a gold star (ok, silver star???). Good night all!!

Hurricane Snore

2010-09-06T20:07:00.012-04:00

Ok, ok that is the stupidest post title, ever! But, Hurricane Earl was the most boring hurricane ever by the time it got up here. I know it caused so much damage all over the Carribean and I hope that the places it hit get help asap.. BUT.. it rained for a few hours and that was it!

Anyway, Peanut was coming back in the storm, she had gone to Maine with my parents, my niece, and my Aunty Kathy and her two Labrador puppies, Abby and MgGee- adorable! They had a blast up there (they were close to Canada!!!) out in the woods, swimming in the lake with the dogs, riding on the ATVs.. it was a good weekend for her! :)
So they were driving home in the rain that night and I was stuck at home worrying about my baby!!

What else does one do when one is at home with nothing to do????

Well, I watched Camp Rock! Anyone else watch it and love it?? *cricket**cricket*

And I am going to shamelessly admit that 21 year old Joe Jonas is really really cute! OK?!?! Now pretend I didn't say that!

I also made cookies at 10:30. Proof below:

These are pretty good! I liked them.. of course, easy to make, but what do I make that ISN'T easy to make?!

So the Peanut came home safe and sound and we have just been getting ready for school, cleaning her room, organizng her closet and her school supplies! She starts school on Wednesday! I'm so excited for her! My baby is going into 3rd grade!

I won't be posting up pictures of her school outfit, but if you want to see, send me an email, because she picked out an AWESOME back to school outfit.. she is too cute! Seriously! Finally her fashion sense has evened out a little bit- and she is getting the hang of making her own outfits. I love putting together outfits, but I never wear them- because I look absolutely riduclous in all these new trendy things people are wearing. I would love to do a fashion post on here every week- but I'm afraid people wouldn't like what I have!

I'm glad you guys liked my gym story too- I thought it was funny myself, even while it was going on.. like one of my "only happens to me!" thing! Ha!
Well I'm off to bed now - at 9:02 pm on a Sunday- but I am WIPED out!! See you all real soon!

Ups And Downs

2010-09-02T21:14:00.012-04:00

Hi guys.. it is Thursday here and I am hunkered down in my house waiting for Hurricane Earl to strike at any moment... Actually I'm not, but that's ok! To all the people down in the Carolinas or anywhere Earl has visited, I hope you are staying safe! We are only supposed to get a lot of rain and a lot of wind. The last time we had a hurricane "strike" up here was Hurricane Bob- August 19th 1992. Please.. someone ask me how that date is so near and dear to my heart :)

So it's been hot. Agonizingly hot again and once again, I am suffering the effects of the air quality- wheezing and coughing- gross! Asthma, I hate you! So yesterday was especially hot and I decided, never mind the heat, I will work out in the gym at work.

Cue the violins...

I thought that I forgot my socks at 11:15 am. Planned to do yoga in the gym..

At 11:25 am, I found my socks and my big ole sweatpants that I grabbed instead of my shorts. Not great, but still ok for some biking..

At 11:35 am, I was in the gym, just about to sit down on the recumbent bike (my favorite place in the gym), when one of the engineers in my building came in. You know the type, skinny, geeky, wears his work shirt, basketball shorts, black socks, and sneakers that looked like they survived Pearl Harbor. (and he did too)

This MF sits right next to me on the other bike in the gym.

Never mind, the treadmill, the elliptical, OR the fact that I KNOW this guy "lifts" weights. He sits right next to me. Did I mention he smells bad????

I got up off the bike and went outside, muttering to myself about what a jerk he was.. Doesn't he realize he stinks and looks like a nerd crossed with a homeless man?

It was HOT. BIG MISTAKE. I should have sucked it up inside. But I was craving cardio and cardio I got. I almost fainted it was so hot. (A trivia side note, a major football team in the area stays at the hotel next door to my building) I really thought I was going to die. A couple of players drove past me in their tricked out Land Rovers and Escalades. I swear, if I were any less of a woman I would have collapsed crossing my fingers some burly football player would give me mouth to mouth. Then I remembered I am engaged and I don't think Charlie would like it if I got smooched by some hot big guy... Damn you conscience!!!

But I survived (duh) and was left with a major headache for the rest of the day. Oh God it was a rough afternoon. I drank so much water I could have floated home and somehow mustered up enough energy to make myself some really awesome shrimp.

The potatoes were these:

They were NOT as good as I make them! But they sufficed for a nice easy carb serving. (I could have had a bowl of cereal you know..)

Oh and one more FUNNY thing. My grandmother turned 830 today (just kidding, 83) and she went ahead and bought herself a birthday cake two days early on Monday. She had them put her name on it.
Her name is PALMA. But with her heavy Boston accent, she calls herself PALMER. OH GRAM!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well all my cousins thought it was hysterical.. and my mom made me take a picture of it. I feel bad for laughing about it, but she's a tough old lady, she'll probably out-live me.. I think she can take it!

I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead of them! With all the rain scheduled for tomorrow night, it's a good night to stay home and watch CAMP ROCK 2. Yes, I am 28 years old and yes, I LOVE the Disney Channel! No shame ladies!!!
And thank you for all your comments on my last post- STRONG STRONG STRONG.. :)

Bridal Shower

2010-08-30T20:58:00.020-04:00

**I tried to post this yesterday.. Blogger was messed up- ARGH**

Noooo.. not mine.. I am forgoing the chaos and craziness that is a bridal shower for myself- I am traditional of course in wanting to get married- but shoot I'll be darned if I have people fuss over me and worry about what color I want balloons to be or whether I would like cheesecake or angel food cake.. (angel food cake... LOL) I can't stand being the center of attention; anyone else get really anxious when people fawn all over them??

Anyway, my friend Hannah is getting married and I couldn't be happier for her! Look at how beautiful she is!

Her shower was on Saturday afternoon. And yes, I know what a slacker I am for not posting about this sooner- sheer laziness! The shower was nothing short of amazing. My friend Jillian is a corporate party planner and has two Masters degrees; one in Hotel & Resturant Management and one in Sports Management. Plus she has an Event Planning certificate. Basically, she knows what the hell she is doing. Here is her work. Sit back and be amazed dears.. lots o' pictures!

Simply put, it was fabulous! I loved everything about it.. the food was good, the cake and cupcakes were sooooo good! Everyone had a good time.

I even won a prize! A Vera Bradley wallet to put in my already overflowing bag. I won the wallet in a "how much stuff do you have in your bag" contest. Obviously, I have a lot of stuff.. yes including the flip flops!!

So here is a picture of me.. please note, I am STILL white as a ghost and I really really need to cut my hair! But I am noticing that my arms are getting really muscular. Here in lies the problem with me. My ED is telling me that my arms are HUGE. Too big for me.. when I'm not sure that they really are.. I don't know.. but when I saw the picture I was flipping out inside.. and I shouldn't be.. Strong strong strong.. I need to repeat that over and over again!

Questions:
1. what's in your purse??
2. do you have any trouble when you go to parties NOT eating everything in sight?

I'm Over It

2010-08-25T09:07:00.010-04:00

Holy crap.. I am totally over this rain! It's been raining since Sunday here in RI and I'm getting SO tired of it! Today I am off from work, so it was nice to sleep in a little bit- you know.. till 7! That's sleeping in for me now :)

Just to let you guys know.. that Abs and Arms DVD is a killer workout! I've done it a few times since then, and it's incredible. I'm definitely going to have to post up some pictures for you all. I always hesitate to do that because I don't want to look like I'm showing off, but shoot- if I have killer arms, you better believe I'm showing those babies off!

Alright.. so another confession- I'm over SALAD. Over it. Done. Done. Don't wanna eat it anymore! If you've been reading you know that I was on a salad kick there for a little bit, but I think I have lettuced myself out. Maybe it's the gloomy weather but when I look at those lettuce leaves I just feel blah! And that's ok by me!

I'm not sure what else to tell you about for food... but... I did forget to tell you what I got for my birthday! A new hair straightener!! So awesome! I love it.. My hair is naturally kinky-wavy and I usually straighten it every other day. I have been using a hair straightener that I bought in HIGH SCHOOL. It would be un-remarkable if I had graduated 2 years ago.. but I graduated 10 years ago.. Therefore.. amazing! But it's been on the fritz and when Peanut asked me what I wanted for my b-day I hinted that my hair was on the fritz too. LOL She got it!

This past weekend Peanut was in a play at church. She played David in David and Goliath! So adorable! It was really cute.. the kids did a good job. The tallest guy who goes to my church was Goliath.. he's 6'7" compared to Peanut's 4'1".. so it was pretty funny watching her sling a "rock" at his head!

Anyway, like I said, I am off today and it's pouring, so we'll see what happens for the day!
The plan is to go to Borders later for some hot chocolate and books.. : )

Whats your plan for this dreary Wednesday??

Skip The Gym & Eat Your Fishies

2010-08-21T19:44:00.013-04:00

Hi all.. how's everyone doing so far this weekend? Not much going on here.. thanks for all the birthday wishes! I was trying to keep the fact that it was my birthday a little hush hush.. but shoot you guys figured me out! LOL! I "know" too many people in real life I guess!

Well, what's going on in your next of the woods?? Mine is pretty clear :)

So I told you the other day that I got a $50 gift card to Amazon.com right? Well, one of the things I bought was an Exhale: Core Fusion Arms and Abs DVD. Strong is the new Skinny right?? Holy moley- I couldn't believe how hard this one was! I loved it! It came with a bright green resistance band to do some of the exercises. If you already have one, you can use yours.

The DVD is set up with 5 ten minute sections each one harder than the last. I was planning on only doing the first 20 minutes and instead I kept going! I'm pretty sure that my abs have never had a workout like this before.. and my arms have been aching ever since I finished the moves.. Holey Moley!

Strong is the new Skinny people.. seriously! I can already tell that if I can keep working on this DVD, I will for sure be getting alot stronger- without even using heavy weights or doing crazy gym workouts. All I used was that dang resistance band and a mat!

So what was on my menu this weekend? Fish. Fish fish fish. Can you tell that I love fish? I suppose I should start calling myself a pescatarian (a veggie lover who eats fish too) but I hate labels, so I'll just call myself a fish lover!

Fish Night #1

Salmon.. bought from Target in a bag... topped with olive oil, garlic powder, a pinch of salt & pepper and cracked red pepper. Yummy! Served with sweet potato fries!
Fish Night #2

More salmon, from the same bag of frozen fish.. expect to see alot of this ok?? This time topped with BBQ sauce, served with fresh green beans steamed and sprinkled with a little garlic salt. See? It's not too hard to get healthy eats in a pinch. Both meals literally took 16 minutes from start to finish! (including cooking time)
I totally understand that I am not one of the most creative bloggers out there. There are other bloggers who just absolutely kill it in the kitchen, and every day I really really want to be like them! But I'm not, I'm a lazy cook, limited in my food choices due to my food sensitivities. However- I still enjoy my food.. and now you know how easy it is to make healthy food choices and not just curl up with a bowl of cereal (of which I am VERY guilty!!!!)

Well, I hope you all are having a great weekend!! Let me know how you are doing please!!!!

And That's When I Snapped

2010-08-19T08:25:00.012-04:00

Hey y'all.... how are you all! I'm doing ok.. I'm here at work.. desperately trying to find the time to write this..

Can you believe I was supposed to have the day off today? It's a national holiday in my book! But a couple of people at work had emergencies and the pressure went onto me to save the day. Naturally, I did. So here I am tired, slightly hung over, and pretty grumpy.

So let's start.. with yesterday.. I found out that I had to work today and I immediately got upset. Who gets called back from a day off to work?? Oh yea.. ME! So I did what any normal person would do when they get bad news..
I went to Borders and got an indulgent coffee drink. Complete with caffeine.

Let me tell you something. I felt like a smoker who has their first cigarette after not smoking for months.. (I only say that because I have been there too) I felt.. instantly better, then a little nervous and then guilty for liking the buzz that came with this. I'm glad I did it... it tasted great. You can't say that about smoking! ;)

The good news was I still was able to keep the plans I had made for dinner yesterday. I am sorry I didn't get any pictures of the dinner! I was with a co-worker (the same one who bought me a bottle of tequila and nominated me for an award..) and obviously work does not know about the blog- so I kept my camera in my bag (begrudgingly too- my dinner was great!) We went to Skipjacks and I had the Mahi-Mahi. The good news was, it was awesome. The bad news was it was $22! I could make at least 8 servings of my dinner for $22. The only other good news is, I didn't pay for dinner.

I did do two things though. Have too much to drink and then whipped out my camera to take pictures of the sunset. Obviously, my nervousness about my camera faded with the wine.. but I think the momentary embarrassment was worth it.

Wasn't it beautiful???
(with flash..)
(without flash..)
Which one do you like better? I have a "sunset" feature on my camera, I'm not sure which is prettier! They are both gorgeous!

Anyway- so the night moved onto the local dive bar, where two shots later, I was practically begging to go home. But I "hitched" a ride to my friends house (ladies.. don't drink and drive!) where she took us to a place near her house. I didn't snap any pictures there, I'm sure I looked like a hot mess, but we had fun. She is hysterical and she and her brothers kept me laughing all night long.

This morning was painful getting up. After all, it was supposed to be my day off.

But this little thing made me feel a lot better.

Thanks to all the new readers for commenting on my last post, I am trying to get caught up on blogs. Perhaps after work tonight while I'm recovering from last night still. Love you all!!!!!! Happy Thursday!!

Snackity Snack

2010-08-16T19:48:00.011-04:00

Hi all, I am back! I'm hoping that I can post a little more this week! We have a couple of people out on vacation this week, and that always stirs up some trouble.. but I'll just roll with the punches :)

This post will be short and sweet as I can manage because I need to get some cleaning done that I didn't do yesterday! Sunday is usually my cleaning day but I took a long nap in the afternoon. On Saturday I spent wayyyy too much time out in the sun and my chest is BRIGHT red. Like Red Sox red. That hasn't happened in forever! I feel bad for myself, but then again, I should know better! Idiot! But I have a tan on my legs, I feel that the ever elusive leg tan makes up for the pain of the chest!!!

So the weekend..... no big plans, but the Peanut and I had a good time! We had plans early in the morning for her with a play date and I dropped her off and then spent the two hours catching up with a friend of mine. Oh adult time is sooooo treasured these days!

Then we hit up Whole Foods and I bought this... YUMMMMMMM in store made Peanut Butter. I have a serious problem with peanut butter.. It's like my life force. But that's ok, protein is protein!

I put a blob in my oatmeal....holy wow! It looks like it's a small blob, but it's really not- all hidden under there!
Saturday afternoon we went to the petting zoo, taking a bag of carrots with us to feed the animals. And here's what we fed ourselves with..

Pretty decent snackage no?? I love plantain chips for sure!!! They are so freakin' awesome!
When we were at the petting zoo, we were attacked by savage goats. Look at these guys, practically beating the fence down trying to get to our carrots! SAVAGES!!

We saw some pretty interesting animals (well, they haven't changed much since we were there last.. but still.. lol) I pet the horse and the horse and I had a "moment" It was cute... Haha..
So like I said, I spent half of Sunday sleeping. I needed it!

Today- I made some shrimp. Can you tell I love seafood?? I made this with garlic, pepper, and wheat free tamari- simple and easy. Looks good right??

In terms of workouts, I'm still going strong and would you believe I'm already seeing a difference in my muscles?? I can't either, I'll have to post some pictures up at some point! Too bad I didn't do before and after shots! Ha!

Well, it's almost bedtime for me.. a few more minutes of Facebook stalking and then it's a wrap! Have an awesome Tuesday!
Oh and congrats to Anthony, son of my girl Katie.. it was his first day of school today- ummm Peanut doesn't start for another 3 weeks! Wow!

Friday Night

2010-08-13T20:38:00.013-04:00

Happy Friday everyone! Oh goodness, I can't believe how fast the week flew by- seriously! I woke up today and realized it was almost the weekend and I got sooo excited! Not like I have HUGE plans, but I just get excited when I remember that I don't have to go into work. :)

Thanks for the congrats on the award! Ameena, you would not really want to come and see me at work! We don't sell anything that anyone would want, except every single manufacturing plant in the US. We sell parts that run plants, and I just spoke to someone today who told me that our parts help run the MBTA in Boston! So the next time my Boston readers get on the T you can think of me! Please don't curse me if something bad happens though!

So anyway, moving onto more important things in life.. My Strong is the New Skinny campaign.. I have been working my butt off all week long for it and with ANOTHER award I got at work (yesssssssss.. I've been feeling so special all week long!) a $50 gift card to Amazon.com, I got 3 new workout DVDs. Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred and two Core Fusion DVDs. I can't wait to try them and focus on getting STRONGER.

That way I can whoop y'alls butts someday! Hopefully next week things will calm down a little bit at work so I can post more often!

OK- my food! Just two meals I had, not ALL of them.

This was so awesome. I loved it.. too good. The salmon cake was a little bit on the spicy side and the pilaf was a bit chewy.. but- overall a big YUM from me!

And this is what my mom made for dinner tonight. MY GOYA RICE. And MY SHRIMP. Glad to be giving food to my moms! Ha!

Other than that.. the weekend will be spent sunning, sleeping, and (window) shopping. My favorite things to do! I'll probably finish reading a couple of books!
What are YOU doing this weekend??

Strong Is The New Skinny

2010-08-09T20:56:00.016-04:00

Good evening fine people! How are you all? I'm doing ok.. for a Monday! I wish I could say I had the Monday blues, but I didn't feel too bad.. went to work, got some good news this morning, and was on cloud 9 all day! It was great! Usually work doesn't equal good news, so it was fine by me!
I just wanted to go over some food stuffs that I got over the weekend when Peanut and I went to Whole Foods! I love Whole Foods.. I've heard it likened to a religious experience.. and I almost agree with that!

Look they even have a cow across the way from Whole Foods where you can get fresh milk!

Nah, I'm just playing- that's the JP Licks cow. JP Licks is possible the best local ice cream place in the Boston area. Peanut and I got some ice cream ;) The only dairy I just can't possibly resist!

At Whole Foods I picked up a delectable new yogurt- I tried this with a little sprinkle of granola. OMG.. It's not dairy free but it is lactose free- which is really what messes up my stomach. This was seriously soooooo good! I was mad that I didn't buy more of them after I ate this! And look at the nutrional facts! So good!

For dinner yesterday while I was bored at home.. meatless meatballs with gluten- free pasta, pasta sauce, "cheese" in the form of Rice Mozerella sprinkle cheese & nutritional yeast.. simple and delish!

So I've been seeing around blog world that "strong is the new skinny". Ladies.. we need to embrace this!! Seriously! Look at this video below:

This is a little kid trained by gymnast Damien Walters- check out my FB page for a video of Damien Walters. Email me, if you need my info for FB :)
Could we do that if we are running on empty? Struggling to be as skinny as can be? I mean, I don't think I could do any of that ANYWAY.. But that's not the point. The point is.. we need to fuel ourselves ladies!!! Don't be afraid to work your butt off and then eat a full meal! I know I have a hard time with this sometimes.. but I'm gonna be changing my tune up. I need to get stronger, not skinnier. I want a six pack, not rib bones poking out everywhere!..

I hope you can join me in my new mission!

So hey, my work news? I won an award for my excellent customer service :) The sales guy who gave me the big bottle of tequila nominated me for it. I was so happy and proud of myself. I'm the first one on my team to get one so far with our new employee regognition.. It goes on my yearly review, plus the award is worth $25. The more I get, the more money I get. Yay! All my hard work is finally starting to pay off a little bit!
Well, hope your Monday went well! I hope to be catching up on blogs tomorrow, work was just too busy today.. Goodnight!!!!

They Call Me Psycho

2010-08-04T19:55:00.008-04:00

Holaaaaa... I'm back for some more fun! Yesterday I spent the day aching and paining. I've been feeling a bit better, I know nothing is broken and nothing is sprained- just badly bruised. I think my pride is my hurt than anything! But I'm glad I survived! I seriously can't wait until I'm feeling 100% and I can tape that yoga sequence for you guys!! I worked out yesterday and today (yep, I'm crazy) but I seriously can't go a day without workin' it!

Thanks for the belated birthday wishes for Peanut! She did have a blast! She's definitely a superstar!! She had so much fun at her party.. Biz I love how fast you type and that was a GREAT idea for a birthday party! I told my mom about it, and she said she went to one once when she was 15 - and had a FACE MASK on. Ha!

So I did find a picture of those sweet and sour meatballs I made for her party!

Recipe as follows- (makes about 40 full size meatballs plus sauce)

2 bags of pre-made meatballs (I used turkey)
2 cans of tomato sauce
2 cans pineapple chunks plus juice
vineagar to taste
tamari to taste (or soy sauce)
S & P to taste
1/2 cup of brown sugar

heat sauce and simmer for a few minutes, then add frozen meatballs and simmer for an additional 25 minutes..

YUM!
I also found the elusive Chocolate Chip Cookie dough Larabars at Whole Foods!!!!!! YUMMMMMMMMMM!!! They are SO GOOD! I also tried the Peanut Butter Choco Chip Dough too- just as yummy!

Today I receieved this email from a customer:
"Sorry I didn't mean to isolate you I just feel safer addressing a person
verses an ip address . Plus you have been professional, prompt, gracious
and dependable to work with, so I figured we would try to claim you as *****'s rep."

I guess my years of drama class have finally started to pay off! HAHAHA!

I'll be back sooooooooonnnnnn! It's almost my bedtime! I have decided to cut out caffeine and I can't stay up past 9:30 anymore.. too sleepy!

For The Very First Time

2010-08-01T19:49:00.015-04:00

Hey guys! Am I coming back to no one?? Comment if you read, just so I know everyone is alive and well. I am! Well, barely hanging on by a thread anyway..

This week is my week before you know what, so I've been extra groggy and grumpy. The two G's are never a good thing! So I stayed away from the computer so I wouldn't sound like a whiny annoying sap. All things my dad called me this week... but that's not the point! The point is... it was the Peanut's birthday last weekend! I took a few days off from work to help her celebrate.. and we did, by throwing a party and having a fun day in the city!

Pics are as follows!
It was hot in the big ole city and we melted pretty much the whole day. We drank a lot of water and had a fun time navigating the subway and streets of Boston. Sorry for the lack of pics of me and her.. try to keep somethings sacred. (In other words, all my pics are of me; I look hot and sweaty.... I'm sending those to Charlie.. lol)

But we went to the Children's Museum and walked the Freedom Trail. We are history buffs and learning dorks for sure!

Later on in the week was her PAR-TAY! If you weren't invited you must not be cool- cuz all the cool kids were there! Actually, it was a small party, but we played in the pool, ate, danced, and ate to our little hearts desire. It was a good party- plus she got lots of presents... what can beat that??

For food we had typical Luau food- fruit, pigs in a blanket and sweet and sour meatballs. Here is a picture of the fruit, the only thing I managed to snag a pic of before it was devoured. YUM!

But here is a dish I made at some point last week in a brief moment where I remembered I had a blog.Shrimp and green bean stirfry. This was totally simple to make dears- saute fresh green beans in a little olive oil, onion, pepper, and a sprinkle of garlic powder. Add wheat free tamari sauce (or soy sauce...) and gluten free teriyaki sauce (to taste).. then add shrimp (I use cooked shrimp, tail removed). Shake it around in the pan a few times, then cover and let it simmer and steam. After about 5 minutes, uncover and EAT.

It was easy, a little spicy, and totally worth the 10 minutes it took to make it.

So, tonight, for the very first time, I was injured while practicing yoga. Yep. And not in a glorious way, where I was practicing pigeon pose and I dislocated my hip.

Look back in my yoga post... the one where I was standing on my head with my legs spread open wide like a stripper? I was in the kitchen (mistake) when I shifted my head about 1/2 centimeter to the right (mistake) and I tried to tuck and roll when I fell (mistake) but instead I crashed into the table. OUCH. Not even an ouch. There's probably no word to describe the pain I felt. I thought I cracked my neck, back, legs, arms, everything. I think I stayed on the floor for a good ten minutes before I moved, just to make sure I was still alive. The cat came over to check it out as I was splayed out under the table. I swear, she must have thought I was dead. I think she tried to start to eat me.
So far, the backs of my legs are bruised and my elbows are puffy and hard to straighten and turning suspiciously blue. I have a 1600 dollar deductible for insurance- so in case anyone asks.. unless you are sending me the cash, I will settle for bathing in ice for the next couple of days. It hurts to type, and is getting worse now. Ice bath here I come!

Technical Difficulties

2010-07-29T21:15:00.003-04:00

Hi all.. I haven't jumped ship yet. I have so much to say and so little motivation to say it. Or rather, blog it. Why do today what you can put off till tomorrow? Right now I'm in a weird place between happy and going slightly mad.

I'll come back. Please don't leave me, I'll be sad if I come back to dead air!

*hugs*
~A

The Unedible & Edible

2010-07-20T21:32:00.020-04:00

I have no idea if I spelled that word correctly or not..Ha! I sometimes think of myself as a pretty decent writer, but there are some words in the English language I CAN'T PRONOUNCE. OR SPELL for the LIFE of me!
Some examples: Preliminary. Specific. Receiving. Niche. Yeaaaaaaaaa... anyone else feel like English is like a second language??

Well nothing too much as been up lately for us.. we have just been hanging out! I did get a pretty decent tan laying outside by the pool! It was nice! I know, I shouldn't be in the sun, but something about the lawn just calls to me..

Tonight I spent some time on the yoga mat and in the kitchen! Shocking, I know! But I have been practicing my hard yoga poses which are getting REALLY easy with all the Pilates I've been doing, so it's pretty cool! Here's what I made in the kitchen-

Mexican Casserole! It was a mix I bought a while back - and I've been wanting to try it, now here's my chance! It was pretty cool! I'll let the pics do the talking!

As you can see it was pretty simple to make! And it was a little bit on the spicy side which I loved! I packed up the rest of it for leftovers for the week too. Yay! No more wondering what to eat for lunch or dinner : )

I also made something that WASN'T tasty at all! I wanted to whip up Oatmeal, Chocolate Chip, Peanut Butter cookies. What I ended up with was lumps of clumpy sticky burnt balls of crap. Look!

These ended up in the trash. So sad! I won't share what I did with the recipe, just so you guys don't end up trying to make them :(

Well- I also did my hard yoga right? Yea! Here are a couple of the poses I did- I know you all want to see pictures of me in my sweatpants on my yoga mat... even better that I am in the TV room. Which is completely ghetto! Haha! You'll even see that hanging on the wall is my little sister throughout the years. My mom did that for all of our high school graduations- and even though she graduated 5 years ago... it's STILL hanging on the wall. Go figure!

Interesting no??? Not too shabby I think! I have to admit, I do really like my shoulders in that last picture! I LIKE my shoulders! They look pretty strong!

Well, I'm off to bed now! I'm wiped!

What do you like about yourself?? And what words do you not know how to spell/ pronounce??

Shocking, I Know

2010-07-17T21:16:00.019-04:00

Happy Weekend! It was a hot day today over here in NE. I still haven't made it to the beach yet. I'm very upset about that one, I need to tan! I really shouldn't - I'm trying to stay out of the sun, but.. I can't help but love the sun!!!

Well Friday was uneventful. And I mean that. My Pilates workout that I penciled in, I got in at the end of the day. And that's ok by me! As long as it gets done at some point, it's all good! I did eat my weight in fruit salsa and pita chips that my mom made. I really love this!! My mom has outdone herself! Simple! Sweet! Delicious!

My mom made Jambalaya with shrimp and chicken as well for dinner and I helped myself to a nice plate of it. This was easy as well. GOYA (be still my beating heart..) RICE and shredded chicken and cut up shrimp. See? It's easy to cook ladies, even if you have no clue what to do!

My dessert was something that has been sitting in my freezer for a while now-

This was so yummy! A nice little dessert for the end of a hot night!
Saturday was a big day for us, me and Peanut had a lot to do! I started the day by doing a Hip Hop Abs Total Body Burn.. it burned my body, gave me a nice boost!
My breakfast to power up for the day.. yummy waffles with Raspberry preserves and Dark Chocolate Dreams PB. YUM!

Lunch was.... a salad, shocking, I know!

I tried a new dressing, Annie's Raspberry Vinaigrette- it was pretty darn good. I liked it! But... I hate to break it to you, but I ONLY had a salad because for my "real lunch" I was having one of these:

This is a caramel frappacino from Starbucks made with soy milk for an extra 50 cents. I LOVE these things, but I practically have to pawn my belongings to pay for one. But, it was my treat and was worth the trade off for "real food" for a change. And hey, it's the weekend!!
And here, my dears was my dinner! Barbecue chicken and apples sprinkled with brown sugar. I had two pieces of chicken.. it was so good! The skin was crispy and juicy at the same time and the flavor was awesome!

Well tomorrow, there is not much planned. Church, pool, pool, sun, pool, sun. I expect to get crispy and juicy like my chicken. You know, burnt and wet. From the pool!! God guys, what kind of a person do you think I am?! Anyway- have a fabulous rest of the weekend dears, I'll be blog reading soon, tomorrow night, tonight, I NEED to get my laundry done! I'm such a rockstar!!!

Get Your Green On

2010-07-15T20:01:00.011-04:00

Yes, it is official. I have had a salad every day this week. Wow! To those who have followed my blog or know me personally, this is an acheivement! I have one packed for lunch for tomorrow too. I rarely eat salad, and here I am getting my green on for lunch every day. I'm patting myself on the back right now! I used the Newman's Own dressing today, but yesterday I made my own dressing using my nutrional yeast, lemon juice, and olive oil. It was pretty darn good! I'll have to tweak that!!

Anyway, workouts have been MUCH better because of the weather and I'm doing my yoga and my Hip Hop Abs. I have a Pilates workout penciled in for tomorrow morning and a walk planned for SURE at lunch time. I have my workout bag packed and everything!

Thanks for all the warm thoughts about my job too- I'm really hoping that something comes out of it.. I have to convince my managers there is room for me in that area. I found my niche, something they've been harassing me to find. So to keep me from going someplace else, they better hook me up!

Now onto the food for the day! This is what I brought for lunch, today and tomorrow. Yep. I'm predictable!

That is my famouso salad- a spring mix salad with green peppers on top. I ran out of tomatoes!
Also, carrots, waffles, and tuna for protein. And no, I didn't eat them all together! The waffles are breakfast! Haha.

My dinner for the night was soup and sweet potato fries. So good- although the soup was a little lacking- it did have enough substance for me.. but was still tasty. I'll take it!

I just had a piece of dark chocolate, so I am spent, tired, full, and satisfied. I am totally ready for bed now, even though it's only 9 p.m. I feel like I need to get to bed earlier and earlier every night to wake up at a decent hour. Anyone else feeling old lady-ish??

I hope you all have an awesome night! Good luck to my lady Katie on her big move today!! Stay safe doll!

When I Grow Up..

2010-07-13T21:26:00.015-04:00

I wanna repair panel boards for manufacturing plants through out the United States.

Huh? Did I just say that?? What am I talking about?? Well, today I was speaking with the leader of the repair department in my company- and we were discussing how he was retiring in a few years. We figured that his position needed a replacement and it should be me! Ha! We'll see what happens, I still have to discuss with my boss how a move to another state might affect my team here. They can't survive without me, and I might not make it to the age of 50 here. So I'll be thinking about it hard.. it's an interesting proposition, would be a lot more moolah. And you all know I need that!

So to answer a couple of questions I got. And to comment on a couple of comments. Sophia- go to a matinee! We went at 2:20 and the movie only cost $8.00 for each of us, plus we went to a gas station near the theatre and spent four dollars on candy :)
But hey, you just got back from a 6 week adventure in Asia, so, that beats the movies any day! Haha!
Biz- nutritional yeast TASTES like a powdered version of nuts and cheese. No seriously, it's a wacky way to describe it but it really does. It's not bad and it has a ton of vitamins in it- some I am seriously lacking in, so I try to sprinkle it on a few things a week to get that in there. Why did I put it on my salad though??? After choking it down, I asked myself the same thing!! *shudder*

Well today's eats and actions weren't too bad! I got up early and did yoga, that was nice and stretchy! It felt really good to do that! I'm definitely doing it tomorrow morning too.
My eats for the day mirrored the usual all the way up until lunch time.

Salad! WHAT NOW??? You guys must be thinking I'm sick! No, I just don't want my salad mix to go to waste.

I topped it with some of the above dressing. Lauren suggested that I needed some decent dressing. I must be the only person out there who doesn't really love salad dressing, hence the reason it's hard to eat salad. Too much vinegar, too much garlic, too creamy. I'm not picky about most food, but I am picky about salad dressing! This wasn't too bad, I liked it, but not loved it. So I'll be on the hunt for some decent dressing this weekend for sure!

I had some rice on the side for some extra carbonation. It was leftover from my lunch on Sunday. I love leftovers!
For my dinner though?? I tried something totally different, and I LOVED IT. Seriously!
This is an Organic Bistro frozen meal. It was new and looked really interesting in the grocery store - so I picked one up to try. This meal is gluten-free and contains no milk ingredients in it, so I felt safe knowning it would end up bothering my stomach later.
I heated this baby up and went to town. The rice had a nice light flavor to it, with mangoes and a little spice. The green beans were a bit bland, but I think it's really hard to make frozen green beans taste delish. The crab cake? OMFG.. This was SO GOOD! The flavor had a bite to it, some parts of it were really spicy- but there were hunks of real crab meat in there. It was totally unexpected, it tasted homemade. For real. The whole meal did. I was blown away.

I had a meeting at church tonight so I had to eat it quick and go there! The meeting went well and I came home and chatted with my lil baby and my other big baby. Now I'm up here, trying to get tired enough to fall asleep. I worked out at 8:30- not a wise idea on my part. I am still working on my dance for a video for you all. It was WAY too hot last week to work on it! So I'm putting everything I can into it now..
But I'm off to brush my teeth and try to fall asleep! Good night all!

Despicable Me

2010-07-11T19:37:00.007-04:00

Happy Sunday! This weekend has been another whirlwind one... and I can't believe it's Sunday already!
Well, I'm hoping that this week goes by slow. Peanut and Maria's birthday is coming up faster than I can handle... I can't believe how old they are getting!

So in short. I finally made something to eat that required more than heating and serving...

This is my favorite easy dish to make, shrimp- simply spray a non-stick skillet with olive oil spray- and cook up the shrimp! Serve on top of GOYA RICE! I love Goya rice with a passion.. and I believe you should too.. haha.
That was Saturday's lunch- Peanut and I went on a little adventure on Saturday too. It rained like crazy for about an hour and caused chaos everywhere! Route One in Mass was flooded from one end to the other- and Peanut and I were DRIVING in it. Not fun! But, we made the best of it.. It still took almost 2 hours to go 10 miles, but who's keeping track???
Today is Sunday. DUH. We had church, then went and scooped up Maria for the afternoon. We were going to the movies! Yayyy! We came home and I had a salad. Please no one fall out of their chairs, I did have a salad! It was green. With lettuce. And other kinds of greens. I literally eat salads once every six months.. I sprinkled nutrional yeast on it.
This was better looking than tasting! But I ate anyway..

We saw Despicable Me at the movies- please if you have a sense of humor go see this movie!!!! It was sooooo funny! We loved it!

Well, right now we are watching the season premiere of Hannah Montana.. thank goodness this is the last season! I'm kinda tired of Hannah Montana! I think my dislike for HM & Miley is getting stronger and stronger. I don't understand the desire to show how "grown-up" you are by acting like a skank. Oh well, I'll save that for another time!
Good night y'all!!!!

I See Shots & Fireworks

2010-07-09T09:25:00.028-04:00

Hi everyone! Oh goodness, I am so sorry! I've ditched you all this week. You know the saying, why do today what you can put off till tomorrow? That's what I was thinking about blogging this week! Everyday I was like, "gotta write a blog post". And every night I went to bed saying, " no.. not today.."

It was HOT in NE this week. HOT HOT HOT and muggy as all hell. This made working out for me, even in AC virtually impossible. I guess according to my doctor, I have allergy induced asthma. But this week, every time I stepped outside it hurt to breathe. Makes it hard to bike ride or do anything because I was coughing half the day. So I took it easy in the workouts.

I kept up eating fairly well though, I definitely didn't take pics of everything plus I forgot my camera at work one night, and you KNOW how lost you get without it!

But to round up the week, it was good. Here are some random eats I did photograph..

Tuesday night's dinner. My grandmother has been in the hospital the last week or so and Peanut and I went to go visit her. Peanut had waffles and I had FRENCH TOAST sticks. They are so good! BTW, my gram is ok.. she was just really sick and asked to be taken to the hospital, they ended up keeping her just for observation- you know when you are 900 years old, they want to keep you there!
My snack on Wednesday..
I know I know, you've seen this before- so who cares?? But I'm trying to keep up with the food pics ok?!

Stoneyfield yogurt with granola.. yummy little snack!
I also let coffee back into my life this week- it's too HOT not to drink ice coffee!

Fortunately at work, it only costs 50 cents and I can make my own.. bring on the almond milk afternoon ice coffee! (plus I made it half-decaf- half reg..)

Wait, how'd that get in there?! As you guys might know, my job is high stress and what makes it more stressful are my customers who think they are the ONLY customers in the world. They aren't but don't tell them that. Well anyway, my sales guy for my biggest account was visiting my office this week and brought me a treat. We always joke about needing a drink after getting off a conference call with these customers who shall remain nameless... so here is my drink! He invited me out for dinner with the rest of the sales team after work, but sadly, I couldn't go. : ( No babysitter for Peanut!
He and I still made it out for a drink after work yesterday (Thursday) where we toasted to.... well... we just toasted! I raced home after to head to "work" for my dad. My liquid dinner went straight to my head and I ended up inhaling 2 Pop-Tarts on the way there. (you see why drinking leads to weight gain?!)

Last night the show was 1776. How many of you have heard of the movie or the musical? Well if you haven't, look it up and rent it. It was awesome! Here are some pics.. All before the show, no pics allowed during!
(I was videotaping since apparently, I am the bestest.. and I wasn't being paid.)

This gave me the boost I needed to get through the show! Obviously since we were in 1776 I was ahead of the times!
Here I am "working" hard!

Actually it was intermission and I took a pic of myself, then had the director Judi take my picture :) Can you tell how hot it was in there?? I was roasting! But again, it was HOT in Philadelphia back in 1776! McCann, the windows! Peanut came with me and sat in her own little seat until the director Judi found her and she sat with her.. Peanut was the directors little assistant! So cute!

Well I have GOT to get back to work over here. Your comments on my last post BTW made me smile and tear up. She is a great kid and I only hope that she gets the chance to live with us soon- she deserves it for sure! *hugs to all of you*

A Weekend Like No Other

2010-07-05T20:41:00.020-04:00

Wow, is it really July 5th already? I can't believe how fast the weekend went by. We certainly had a thrilling one. Seriously!!
I'm still coming down from the high I have right now. And yes, before you ask, it was completely substance free. Haha..

What did we have going on anyway?? I'm busy digging through my pictures trying to figure out how to chronologically put all this in here. So let's start with Saturday if we can. Peanut and I woke up late and I worked out- doing a Hip Hop Abs Total was Body Burn. It was tough but I loved working my abs off!!! So after that, Peanut and I went to the store at the outdoor mall near my house, we went totally NOT looking for anything to do but to return something. And we walked into a wild kid party. There was some road race going on the next day and there were tons of kid related activities, designed to get the parents excited about the race. I think that's what it was anyway.
So we stayed and got swept up in the action.

Face painting! And Qdoba! Yummy and perty!

We got airbrush tattoos too! So fun! Mine is almost rubbed off and Peanut's is totally gone. But they looked good when we got them!
After that adventure was done and over with we went home, ate again, and headed out to the fireworks... whoooooo!

They were really really awesome! I loved them.. but I was anxious to get myself home again. I was ready for BED. It really felt like the best day ever with the Peanut. We just really went with the flow and had a great time! Amazing!

But then came Sunday. And Sunday, I cried like a baby that night. I finally got to see my step-daughter after trying to survive without her. I have my own little one, but when I say she is the sweetest little girl I've ever met (besides mine of course!) I mean it! I love her so much!
Well, the three of us had an awesome time together. We went swimming (check FB for some fun pics) and then ate dinner and then went for ice cream. It was a blast. My SD said it was the best day ever.

My lil sis and her hubby came over and we had some crazy laughs. My lil sis is an awesome story teller- from her facial expressions to her crazy accents and mannerisms. Love it!
So this morning Peanut had her first day of summer camp and I ended up leaving Maria there as well. It totally broke my heart to see how much FUN she had at camp with the other theatre kids. Her mother won't let her do things like that because ... well I don't think she's interested in what Maria wants to do for fun. BUT I AM! Whatever it takes to make the kids happy (within reason of course! lol)
When I spoke to Maria on the way home she told me she couldn't wait to be living with me and Peanut. Again, I cried on the way home from dropping her off.

I realized something else tonight. I didn't think about food. I ate when I was hungry. I ate enough food and didn't think about "too much" or "do I really need to eat this?". I just ate. And I didn't even take any pictures of any food either! I consider this weekend to be a success. It was the best weekend I've had in a long time. I hope you all had marvelous weekends as well and enjoyed your time off if you had some.
Will be checking in tomorrow at some point! *hugs!*

Dear Justin O-M-G

2010-07-02T22:16:00.012-04:00

I've been totally obsessed with a boy named Justin lately.

Nooooo, not this Justin..

Even though I shamelessly dance my little heart out to Bieber on the radio! Shhh.. don't tell anyone!!

THIS JUSTIN:

O-M-G.. every time I open my jar of Maple Almond butter, I forget I've already committed my heart and soul to Charlie.

"There's so many ways to love yaaaaa"

Feel so hot for maple out of all the butters on the shelf
This one got me whipped, just off one taste, yep I fell in love
This one something special, this one just like dynamite... O-M-G!!!

It's offical. I need to open a store and only sell Justin's Nut Butters. This is just amazingly incredible. I am literally telling everyone to go out and get a jar this weekend and spend it, in bed, eating crackers, waffles, and french toast, and pitas, and wraps, and apples, oh yea baby..
I don't have a lot to write about today and no pictures of food. When Charlie asked me today what I ate.. because he always does, I shamelessly told him I ate almond butter all day long. Sometimes I dipped a munchkin (thanks for bringing in the muchkins Gail!) in the jar. I ate an apple too. Dipped in almond butter. Are you seeing the pattern here???

Well, I hope you all have a great holiday weekend. I will be doing fireworks with Peanut tomorrow, other than that we are hanging out and enjoying the weather!!! It's going to be HOT!

And btw, thanks for your comments on my last post, I really honestly thank you.. I am not sure what to do about it, but when she calls me next week with my blood work results, I'm going to make it a point to talk to her about it. I took Prozac a while ago and it worked ok, I'm not a fan of medication, but maybe it would get me over the hump for a while; plus, at $45 a month for a script or $150.00 + for therapy.. I'd rather take my frustration out on my Justin. Ooops, I meant almond butter!

Say It Ain't So!

2010-07-01T15:21:00.012-04:00

It's Thursday people, and you know what that means!!!!!! Maybe you don't. I don't either, don't worry!
I'm still kid-free, my younger sister is taking the Peanut up to my older sister's house for a sleep-over birthday party. Some of us couldn't get the day off, so we aren't able to sleep-over on a Thursday night!!! Sorry twins! Happy 11th birthday to my little nieces! They are getting so big! I can't believe it.. I'm really feeling old at this point in my life!

Well, I had a doctors appointment today for a physical and before I went in, they told me I owe a ton of cashola for co-pays. Welcome to my world! Everyone seems to be chasing me for money this year- don't they know everyone is broke now?!
But I took a mental healthy survey and was kind of surprised at the results. It was about 10 questions and I answered "mostly every day" to every single one of them except for the one where it asked "do you feel like hurting yourself?". I wasn't lying. I'm tired, cranky, down, don't want to do anything anymore, and have a noticeably decreased appetite. So, my doctor sees me, doesn't see anything wrong with me, but they are still doing tests for anemia, and thyroid trouble. I am within a healthy weight for my height, so no worries there. Technically I guess I could be 100 pounds and still be considered healthy. My twisted mind wondered what I would look like at 100 pounds and then I mentally slapped myself out of it!
But the enormous red flag that was waved, the mental health survey- was ignored. I left feeling a little weird. Should I have brought it up? Should I have said, "listen I cry myself to sleep five nights a week- is that normal!?" Maybe it's because even in my most depressed state I can still crack a joke. I'm a naturally funny, fun-loving person. So in order to make others feel good, I make them laugh. But mine is a hollow laugh, no substance behind it sometimes. I do LOVE being happy and I want to be REAL HAPPY all the time; not fake happy half the time.
Any thoughts??

But the only other thing we did determine was that I should be using an inhaler when I work out. My asthma is back due to allergies. Dang POLLEN!!!!! So I got that (it cost arm and a leg people, so I might not be working out until those grow back!) and came back to work for the afternoon.

Well moving onto food. I bought cherries the other day because for some reason I love them. These are huge. Hmmmmm... insert gross joke about big cherries..

I'm eating some of them right now actually.... yummy!
Last night I decided to do more fajitas. I went on an epic hour long bike ride. My ass was sore, my legs were sore, my you know what hurt, and I was upset that none of this was because of my man. I think I'm gonna name my bike after my fiance. At least it will sound like I'm having some fun! But still, the bike ride felt GREAT. Anyway, I made fajitas again. Why?? Because it was stupidly easy and I was tired.

Tonight there is not much on the menu for myself! What are you people doing??? Hopefully it's more exciting than what I am doing.. repeat of the other night!

Rock Those Carbs

2010-06-29T20:02:00.020-04:00

What up fools? Lordy, I have no idea why I'm in such a looney mood today! It must be the heat and the humidity! It has been suffocating lately and no relief with the rain either! Dang Mother Nature, rain for a few hours already! Although I will regret it when it does.. I went for a walk today at lunch time and almost died. It was so humid, I could barely catch a breath! Felt like I was breathing in steam..

Well. Today.. I have some extra special news. This weekend, sometime, I should have a new video done for you guys. What what now? It has literally been a YEAR since I've done one. I've been listening to a new song on repeat, dancing it out in my head, and it's actually working on my feet. So get ready for some fun!

I am "kid-free" for a couple of days, since I babysat my niece for TWO WEEKS, my sister offered to take Olivia for THREE DAYS. Let's not talk about the fairness of that trade-off!! But I'm happy, I can dance like a lunatic every night without the Peanut laughing at me.

Thanks for all the nice comments on my shoes! I love them too, and I got them for rock bottom price a while ago. I could never afford a pair of Manolos, so to say that I feel pretty SATC over a pair of Carlos Santanas.. it's like upgrading from Walmart to Saks. :)

Alright, you wanna know about my food! No? Too bad, I'm spillin'! Almond Butter. The jar is almost gone and I just opened the thing a week ago! Fillin' my body with healthy fats!!!! Yippee!

So I've been getting diagnosed over the phone for my lack of energy and lack of well anything. Charlie's friend thinks I am anemic. "Seriously man, she can't go without meat, what is she thinking? She needs meat on those bones". Thanks Dude!!! Another lectured him on the importance of eating carbs, and since Charlie thinks all I eat is peanut butter and canned tuna (so what if I do?!?!) he in turn told me all about how carbs turn into energy. I let him talk, then pointed out that I was a Chemistry major with a minor in Health/Nutrition for two years in college. No I didn't!!!! I'm not gonna blow up his spot like that! Poor guy!!! I was impressed he absorbed that much info about it though!

But since I love my baby, I'm dedicating my dinner to you babycakes. Fajitas! Veggie ones, I didn't feel like defrosting any meat. (Sorry Dude I don't know who thinks I'm anemic!) But these were an EASY, TASTY, way to get in some carbos.

And now ladies and gents. I'm back to strap on my dance shoes and prance around the kitchen like a fool. Don't laugh, you wish you were with me!!!!!

Beef, It's Not For Dinner

2010-06-28T08:13:00.012-04:00

Good morning y'all... how was everyone's weekend?? Mine was smashingly good! I guess!

I know I ditched you all over the weekend and didn't post any updates, but after a stressful work week I wanted to detach myself from technology for a bit. It felt pretty dang good to do so! Where did we leave off???

Saturday! Work! UGH! But whatever, the day was over before I knew it and then I went home and got in a killer cardio workout. It was hot and I had the AC on and I was still soaked with sweat. Do you guys sweat too much when you work out?? I get crazy sweaty- I'm down to the point where I keep baby wipes in the car just to freshen up if I have to run someplace after work or I'm running around all day.

Gross. Enough about bodily secretions..

Let's talk about clothes!!!!!! It's no surprise that I love clothes, but I'm not the most fashionable person out there. I do love the trends out there now, but with my bod, I find it impossible to wear half of them. I try stuff on, then toss it to the side because I either look pregnant or just really weird. I chalk it up to my boobs and my butt. They just get in the way!!!!

So I basically stick to the basics. I have found the best things for me are, long, soft tees without crazy prints and slim fitting jeans. Insert flats, boots, or flip flops. Add a scarf, or a purse and I'm so fly. *cough* sorry that was stupid.

But there are times when you gotta follow the trends. Cuz I love shoes! And I LOVE these shoes!

These are by Carlos Santana.. and are practically the most amazing shoes my feet have ever put on in my life. Seriously! Comfy, the leather is soft and supple, you don't slip, fall, crack a bone, pinch your feet. Nada. They are just beautiful.

I wore them to church like a hoe.
But I paired them with black skinny fit capris and a silver tank top. Where else am I gonna go to get dressed up but church?!

I brought a bag though, because right after church I needed to change into an even cooler outfit.

The camp counselor look! Come on guys, I look smokin' in orange right?!

I think it looks cute! The Peanut has her shirt too and we wore them out and about in the afternoon, we got looks of awwwwww... and how cute. We are!

Up next some chow..This was my lunch on Sunday afternoon before we went back to church for Vacation Bible School..

What is that shredded stuff on my sandwich you say? Well it's not Sloppy Joe from a can that's for sure!

It was this.. which is pretty dang good for a fake meat product. The sauce is nicely spiced and flavorful. The texture of the meat product is a little off- but it's not like chewing shoe leather. Overall, it's a yummy little dish that gets 3.5 stars from me. Only 1.5 off because it has wheat in it. And that drove my tummy nuts for a bit.

On that note, I'm off to get to work. It's going to be a heck of a day, I didn't get much sleep last night! I'm picturing my cup of coffee to be full later on today, I don't think I'll make it through!

Sheer Madness

2010-06-25T08:52:00.008-04:00

It's Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG SeriouslyTHANKYOUJESUS!!!!!!!!

Can you tell I'm excited? I still have to work tomorrow too, but hey, Sunday is a play day, so I'm good with it!

Well, the last couple of days have been a little nutso. The fall out from my confrontation with someone wasn't as bad as I expected- I actually felt much better about myself. Which is always good!

The yoga front is looking a little bad lately, I worked out on Wednesday but not yesterday and not so far this morning. I have been taking 20 minute walks at lunch time, a stroll is better than nothing at all right? But I'm feeling a little lethargic and craving caffeine hard core. I can not give in!!!!!! Say no to drugs!

Tonight, I have a lot to do- food shopping, working out, work, blah!

I'm just doing up this post really quick NOW, so I don't have to worry about it LATER!

A peek inside my lunch box!

We have Gluten-free bunnies by Annie's, the Peanut's yogurt which I "borrowed", apples, a tuna cup, Attune bar, Larabar (peanut butter cookie!), in that blue thing under the Attune bar is veggie soup. It might seem like not a lot of food, but Friday's is Munchkin day here. And I would rather save the stomach ache and an extra 300 calories so I can have my little chocolate frosted munchkins.. Sad, I know!

Well dolls... I'm off to get back to work! Have a LOVELY Friday, hopefully tonight and tomorrow I'll be able to catch up on every one's blogs!!!

Subliminal Messages

2010-06-23T15:06:00.010-04:00

God speak to me sometimes through tea bags.

No really, I swear! I kid you not.. the last few times I have had my tea, something has been going on and my flippin' tea bag had an all important message to me.

I was having a rotten day at work late last week. Isn't every day a rotten day?! But this one was topping the cake. I couldn't wait till 5 pm, I was snapping at people in my head.. asking myself why do I stay here? Why are people sooooo stupid?? Can't I just quit and be among the other people who just quit their jobs for no reason?

Nope! Stay put!

And change the way you think about it!

Saturday morning, Charlie and I were having a bad talk. I had been grumpy the last couple of days because work was heating up and he thinks I'm leaving when I get upset. See above.
Well, I was tired. And quiet. And there he was asking if I still wanted to do this with him.. and I kinda bit his head off. Told him to chill out!!!! I'm here dang it! And I'm gonna be here!!!! I did apologize because I didn't mean to speak to him so harshly. I felt bad, and I told him, I needed him just as much as he needs me. Then I cracked open my tea bag.

I think I need to send him this picture!

Yesterday, was the day before I got my you know what. And you know ladies, there is always that ONE day in your cycle where you feel like the world can't stop you- and no matter what you come out on top? That was that day for me. In a desperate attempt to try and make me look bad a certain baby mama told a certain thing about me that she heard from a "reliable source". 1. It wasn't me 2. It still wasn't me and 3. It was totally not me and wasn't true. But I got the chance to finally stick up for myself. You guys know that she is a source of a lot of problems for Charlie, their daughter, my daughter, and his family. She saw my sister at Wal-mart with her boyfriend... and said it was ME! WHAT? So anyway, one thing led to another and I let her have it, in the nicest way possible. I hate drama, but when my dignity and moral foundation is on the line, I just can't tolerate it and have to speak up.

It was interesting to say the least and I learned a lot more about her in that hour long conversation than I care to know. And the good thing was, I had the upper hand the whole time. Not that I was keeping score, but if this thing ever comes back to haunt me one day, I know that I was 1. honest 2. respectful and 3. in the right in defending myself. I felt bad about freaking out about it later but then I thought about it and I patted myself on the back.

I may not be a supermodel in the making like her, but there is one thing I will never be. A manipulative looney tunes!

Anyway, I'm getting back to work!!!! I hope you guys are having an AWESOME week so far! I'll be heading home tonight to work out- I didn't a chance to this morning, I couldn't sleep last night.. these flamingos showed up in the middle of the night and were squaking all night long.... sheeeeeesh!!!!

(fundraiser at church.. I'll be taking pics of when we move the flock to another location... muahahahahahaha!!!!!!)

Not My Idea Of a Quickie...

2010-06-22T13:26:00.010-04:00

Hi Y'all!!!! Like my title suggests, this one is going to be a quickie!

First of all- Happy Belated Father's Day to all the dads out there who are reading my blog (how many are there??? *cricket**cricket*) and to my dad. And to my favorite dad in the whole world- Charlie- I miss him so much!!!! The Peanut does too!

End of quarter is this week and I am squeezing in the workouts even though I don't have a lot of time.. but it's good, less time to think you know?!

So yoga. YES. Biking. YES. Getting hot and sweaty for no reason. YES. It's been SO HOT HERE!

Up next; FOOD!

I made almond butter chocolate chip cookies for "my dad". He liked them the last time I made them.. but I still ate most of them!
My mother made fruit salsa and homemade pita chips for an appetizer for Father's Day lunch. She used blueberries, strawberries, kiwi, and peaches. Combine fruit, sugar, and a touch of honey- pulse in the food processor until it has a salsa like texture and inhale. Literally we all did. This bowl was gone in about 5 minutes! SO GOOD!

My dad grilled steak and sausages.. he was in his glory of course! Here was my plate.. I was carbo loading!

So that was Sunday..

Yesterday, I managed to get my workouts in.. walking at lunch time, yoga after work, then another walk to the store with the girls.. then I carbo-loaded again!

Followed by a piece of chocolate and my night was done!

Today I am dealing with some work drama, but all is good otherwise, I got the Peanut signed up for school, registered for the bus.. she is good to go to 3rd grade.. yay!
Hope you are all having a fabulous day! By the way, I loved hearing about which Disney Princesses you all were, looks like we are the whole bunch!!
I'll be checking in tomorrow!!

Which Disney Princess Are You?

2010-06-19T20:42:00.010-04:00

Today was the Peanut's dance recital!!!! I couldn't believe how awesome today was! She did soooooooo good. She takes tap and ballet, and while I didn't get any pics of her in her tap costume, here she is in her ballet costume. Well from behind anyway..

(Check Facebook for more if you want.. lol)
Today was a weird day in terms of eating.. I was thrown for a loop because we were stuck in the school all day long for the recital and then went for ice cream after that. At that point, my camera had long since died, so I didn't take any pics. But I had a waffle for breakfast with Justin's peanut butter, kind of like what I had for breakfast yesterday!
(this was taken at work yesterday btw.. )

(this was a new jar- I could BARELY stir this! argh!)

Snacks included half a cheese sandwich I stole from the Peanut, carrots I borrowed from her, Maria cookies I stole from her, and water bottles I stole from my mom. Are you noticing a pattern here? I didn't set myself up correctly for a good eating day. It wasn't enough to eat for me!!! I am wiped out..
But I sorta made up for it at dinner; veggie soup and a Zbar- chocolate brownie.. what can I say, I need my chocolate!

So to update everyone on my 101 Day Challenge. I am barely making it through yoga, but I'm doing it. Even when I don't feel like it.. even when I wanted to cry.. I did it. So I definitely feel proud of myself for that. It's too easy for me to beat myself up when I start losing the motivation to work out. And I think I gave myself an easy goal of yoga for 20 minutes a day! BUT, my bike riding has been seriously HARD. On the weekends I haven't had much time to squeeze in a long bike ride. Or it's been raining when I'm home after work. So I'll keep trying to get that in! Maybe tomorrow!

I found a new workout top at Target today with my sister for $3.74!!!!!! Whawhoooooo!!! I *heart* Target for those random finds! So I guess I'll try and take the kids on a bike ride in the morning. We are playing hooky from church.. : )

Please check this link everyone! Which Disney Princess Are You? I am Jasmine, hands down!!!
"You are strong in standing up for your beliefs, one of which includes marrying for love, not for social-standing or wealth. Free-spirited, intelligent and brave as you are, you like to make your own decisions, and you are unafraid to voice your opinions. You can also come off as feisty! You crave adventure and cannot sit indoors for too long. Though you grew up privileged and admired for your unique beauty, you are not self-absorbed. You are a caring person, and you feel the desire to help the underprivileged." (minus the privileged part... I wasn't!)

Well, I'm heading to bed. Hope you all are having a fabulous weekend!!!

Duck in a Pond

2010-06-18T20:05:00.014-04:00

I am a duck in the pond. On the surface everything looks calm. I am aloof, serene, maybe even a little off-putting. But underneath, I am paddling away, fiercely, to keep myself floating. It's hard work...

My little feet are pushing through the water as I go around in circles around the pond. I push my head under the water for a brief second searching for food, an escape. I get nervous easily- scared by loud noises, kids, cars. When I get bothered by the other ducks in the pond I quack, flapping my wings, quack louder, push the water towards them. I quack and quack and flap my wings because I know of no other way to express my emotions.

The other ducks float off because they are scared of me. I pretend I like floating alone, but I hate it. I race for the shore where they all are desperately trying to fit in. Along the way, I see swans- with their long and graceful necks and pure white feathers. I stop and think to myself, "why do I not look like them? Why am I not perfect? Why am a short and squat.. with ugly brown feathers and this stupid huge duck bill.. it's not normal!" The swans swim gracefully away- it seems like they float on over the water, so ethereal and untouchable.

I waddle onto the shore and fight my way into the crowd of ducks eating bread crumbs, I'm so miserable this way it hurts..

Why am I the way I am? Why do I look so awful? Why do I quack so obnoxiously? Is there any beauty in me? If there is a chance for me to see it.. I want to see it now..

If you look close enough, you see something special on me that you don't see in some swans. It's under the surface, inside of me.. I have a heart. I have compassion and even though I scramble with words, get bothered easily, and flap through the water like a mad-man. Even though my outward expression seems often calm and emotionless- I'm struggling to get through it. I have a heart. Even though I am not a willowy pure swan who glides through everything. I have a heart.

I'm a duck in the water.

But I have a heart.

Work Horse

2010-06-17T20:05:00.018-04:00

It's Thursday already- T-G-I-F-F-R. Thank God It's Friday For Real! I can't wait until the weekend, I feel like I'm going insane over here! Work is work. End of quarter is coming up next week and I do all the returns... everyone of course waits until the last second to get stuff repaired and returned for credit. Makes my life misery!

Today was a rough one for sure. Right now I am chillin' in bed with the girls and we are watching The Lizzy MgGuire movie- love it!

So no one noticed the NEW LAY-OUT?! What?! I changed things up a little bit earlier at work when I was on the phone with someone. Shhh.. don't tell them!

Enough of that, what did I eat/do today?

Breakfast! nice and crispy waffles and sweet almond butter.. yummmmmmmm heaven!

My two snacks- and my tea bag.. another inspirational little blurb- I loved it. I am definitely a pretty compassionate person. I come across as crass, harsh, and politically incorrect but I care alot about everyone and am the first one in line to help an underdog. We should all take a step back and help someone else before we help ourselves once in a while and see how good we feel : )

My dinner! Sorry the pictures are backwards- stupid ass Blogger! I used my other piece of Mahi-Mahi, sprinkled with Gluten-free bread crumbs- seasoned with Italian spices.. sooooo yummy. I had them with Sweet Potato fries (channeling my meal from last week!) I love sweet potatoes!

What's this???? Is that the debris left by a tornado? A hurricane? Nooooo.. just two little girls without a care in the world who attend Camp Noni- led by a disabled old lady (my mother!!!)
I made them clean. I could feel my blood pressure go up every time I looked in there for the last two days and I was ready to flip! They earned their dessert though! Look!

Good job girls!! Love you cuties!

I did my workout for the day already. A 3 mile walk/jog/exhausted run/dead at the end workout at lunch. Then I came home and did 20 minutes of yoga. Yea I'm getting in my daily requirements still : )

Well, I've got to finish up my laundry.. I packed my lunch for tomorrow already, I'm prepared to get up early and work off the chocolate chip cookies I just ate!! I'll be checking with you ladies tomorrow!

Act Great

2010-06-16T21:42:00.000-04:00

Yikes! Where did the day go??? I didn't really have a chance to do much today.. Wednesdays are a notoriously BUSY day at work. People have woken up from being hung over on Monday and Tuesday and are like, oh yea, I have stuff on my desk, let me clean it off!

I'm SO glad I'm not the only one who struggles with Blogger. If it wasn't for the ads on it (which.... are that way ----------------------------------------->) I would SOOOOOO be using Wordpress!

I'm just going to BREEZE right through these so I can make my lunch for tomorrow and go to bed!

After my disaster with my Vom-Meal the other day, I brought in my OWN oatmeal, complete with cinnamon and brown sugar.. YUM!
Snack was another Larabar- PB&J flavor, I have a slight obsession with those..

Lunch was canned salmon with dijon mustard. I put it on the last two slices of GF bread I had, plus with a slice of rice "cheese". It was tasty, a little dull, but hey I'm not going for glory here.. just simplicity!
Around 2:30 or so, I started getting really tired, cranky, and sad. I think my you know what is coming any day now, so this is to be expected. I took a walk and got some tea and dug out my snack- organic baby carrots. Crunchy and "watery" they woke me up for a few minutes.

I noticed this quote on my tea bag..

It reminded me to focus, get the rest of the day done, and be at peace with it. So I did.

This was my second snack because I was running around after work- so I needed something that would tide me over for a while. With 18g of protein, 4g of fiber, and 240 calories- this was a heavy but yummy "snack"/small meal.. whatever it was!
I had things to do after work, and I ended up getting home LATE. I was hungry and reached for the first thing I saw. One of these... holy delish. Never mind chock full of bad stuff. Sometimes, my family drives me nuts! lol Constantly food in the house I can't eat.. and I can't turn stuff like this down.

The girls went strawberry picking with my Mom today- they got a TON! I don't really eat strawberries because they make my mouth tingle, but Imma be eating these! Organic little yummy strawberries!!

Well I'm off to bed dears! I hope you all have a lovely night.. and I'll be checking in tomorrow as well, hopefully I'll have some time to comment back and email back and stuff like that!
Night!!!!! :D

Scheduling Problems

2010-06-15T21:05:00.000-04:00

Holy crapola.. I'm watching America's Got Talent over here. What is wrong with people?!?! I'm sorry- but some people gotta check themselves wayyyyyyy before they wreck themselves.. um, on National Television?! But the secret performer in me really would love to be on that show! But some of these performances are incredible!

I spent some time tonight working on some dance moves, my big goal for the summer is to get ispired and do some more work-out videos for you guys..like I did here..

So today I was absolutely a big ole mess. Tired, cranky, tired, and cranky. I think that yesterday caught up with me! I was falling asleep waiting for the Peanut to get out of dance class. So I came home and ate my dinner, ran some errands, and here I am in bed- waiting for AGT to be over so I can HIT the sack HARD.

My eats for the day:

This is my gluten-free bread with Tofutti "cream cheese" and some raspberry preserves, a sweet and easy way to start the day..

SNACKS! Add in an Attune bar as well- and those are my snackies for the day. If it looks like I eat ALL day long, it's because I basically do. Also unpictured was a big bowl of my Sweet Potato soup I had yesterday.
** Slight interjection.. I FREAKIN' HATE BLOGGER! It is IMPOSSIBLE to easily upload pictures.. Blogger, you s**k!**

This was my dinner! I bought it at the grocery store earlier today, these are super easy to just heat in the microwave. And I was definitely looking for a quick dinner!
Dessert was more chocolate.. of course.. HAHA!

And I did get in somewhat of a workout- 30 minutes of Pilates this morning and some dance tonight!

So does anyone else have a rigid schedule when it comes to food? And it is a natural hunger cue or are you "hungry" because it's time to eat? Like for example, you eat a snack at 10:30 because.. that's snack time. And a snack at 3:30 because, it's snack time! And dinner at 7:15 because it's time? That's how I am most of the time, and everytime I try to switch it up or my schedule gets switched up, my body is like.. ohh hell no.. not doing this today to me!!!! (insert head bob and finger snapping here). Do you think that sometimes we just get into a schedule and then our body adjusts to that? Like for me today- at afteroon "snack time" I was on the phones, unable to reach behind me and get my snack. Dammmiiittttttttttt.... I wanted something!!!

Well. I'm off to bed. Let's try to have a non-tired and cranky day tomorrow, m'k? I think I bit a few people's heads off at work, I'll have to kiss some butt!!!!

Wide Awake

2010-06-14T20:43:00.000-04:00

Holy mother of God, it's Monday again. I'm here watching the Real Housewives of NYC Reunion.. they are so catty and crazy. I love it! It's craziness! Does anyone else like these shows??
So I survived the rest of the weekend, have I told you guys that I decided to stop drinking coffee? Since Charlie left I've been relying on coffee more and more to get through the day.. because I've been so tired all the time, blah blah blah. I love coffee.. who am I kidding?! But I'm trying to quit!!!!! BLECH! I'm making the switch over to decaf, to more green tea, etc. So yesterday when I got home from church, I was SO tired, I took a 3 hour nap. Which led me to be awake until 4 AM last night! W-T-F?!?!?!?! ARGH!!!! I broke out my laptop, I watched TV, I read. I tossed and turned and nothing. I was awake. My mind was going a hundred miles an hour and it just wouldn't stop! By the time 1 a.m. I realized that it was A. too late to take one of my mom's Vicodin's to knock me out. Or a Tylenol PM - before you think I'm a druggie.. lol B. really going to be a long day on Monday.

But I'm here, I'm alive! By the way, my mom is too! She broke a bone in her foot and pulled some tendons. She's using a cane to get around with her foot wrapped up. I've been helping her out and so have the Peanut and my niece.. good job girls!!! Lol.

Thanks for all your well wishes for her!!!!

So here's what I ate today while I was in a work haze/coma/in the zone.... I thought I wouldn't make it!!!

Breakfast: Blueberry Muffin Instant Oatmeal. I bought this a couple of weeks ago and just am trying it now.. I didn't really like it.. I'm not a blueberry fan.. so I think if you REALLY like bloobs- this is good!

I will not include a picture of it though. It kind of resembled something that would come out of my stomach after drinking and eating pancakes at iHop after.. UM YEA. You know you've done it!
Snack & Lunch: An Attune bar, sweet potato soup, and carrots.. got my veggies in today!

Snack 2 & 3: Annie's Gluten-Free Bunnies and a Cliff Z-bar Chocolate Brownie flavor. I was channeling my inner child.. haha.. plus I needed a "sugar boost". HA!

I came home from work and immediately hit the yoga mat. I stretched my whole body and it felt SOOOO good! I did yoga for about 40 minutes and by the end of it, my legs were shaking, my whole body was sweaty and I was happy as a clam. Exhausted but good.
I made fish for dinner... drowning it in healthy canola oil, and dumping garlic salt, pepper, red pepper, cilantro, and lime juice. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I loved this!!!! I love garlic! And this was fantastic! It sorta cleaned out my sinuses from the red pepper, but hey my sinus cavity is thanking me right now.

Dessert: CHOCOLATE!!!!! I broke off a hunk of it. Chocolate is good for you- especiallly dark chocolate!!! And I can't resist the call of chocolate- for real. I also randomly ate handfuls of cereal and a few tortilla chips and the end piece of bread in my bread loaf I have, with some margarine on it. Phew. A full days worth of eats.. haven't done that in long time!

Well, I shall meet up with you all tomorrow night, I've been commenting back and forth with some lovely people and I want you all to know, that even though we struggle sometimes.. we are all people who are worth more than the number on the scale.. We ARE!
*hugs to everyone*

The Hamburglar

2010-06-12T21:38:00.000-04:00

Wow.. I can't believe all your comments guys.. ahem, gals.. I can't even begin to express how awesome it is to be among such awesome ladies in blog world. In this same scenario without my blog, I definitely would have been in shock for days before and after; after attempting a feat like, eating a burger.

I think the problem is, we have our fear foods. Some of us are anxious about eating pizza, or ice cream, or cake and can't be in situations where these foods are present. I suppose it's safe to say, burgers are my fear food. And I was craving one so bad... but it scared me to want one that bad.

To recap the comments I got..

Christina said, "The same goes for "splurges" of food - once in awhile is fine as long as you go back to healthy."

Katie said, "U do not have to WORRY about eating a burger and fries tonight at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Kate said, "if u have a craving and totally ignore it, you will just end up eating a lot of other random stuff that you dont even want"

Jessie said, "So I don't have any advise but HATE when this happens. I totally know how you're feeling"

Debbi said, "If you throw it a curve ball every once in awhile (not too often mind you), then you kick it into high gear and it started to burn the extra calories and kinda prepares for the extra calories the next day."

Sarah said, "Good for you for going out anyway"

Lauren said, "Having a burger once in a while won't kill you, it won't make you gain weight"

Gaunt Future (I'm sorry doll I don't know your name!) said, "I hope you enjoyed every bite and didn't get anxiety once :)"

Well. We went out and I ate the dang burger. Yep. I did it. Oh my stomach protested. I prepared myself though. I made sure to eat healthy all day long, tomato soup and veggies for lunch. Waffles and peanut butter for breakfast. And a Cliff Bar for a late snack around 4:30-5. At 6:30 we went out.. Mind you I DID wear my sweatpants for this! lol

But from the comments I did get before I left, I actually texted to myself (I don't have the Internet on my phone due to my cheapness) and read them before I even walked in the door and when I ordered my food. I got a burger. Without the cheese and mayo and with extra tomato and with sweet potato fries on the side. So I got my Vitamin C, A, Iron, and protein. That's what I kept telling myself. It's good for me. It's good for me. It's good for me.
I didn't finish the whole thing because I did want to save room for my "Happy Ending" sundae. Something about jail bait cute high school boys just makes me say "yes" to upgrading a sundae..

(the Peanut had Mac and Cheese!!!!)

BBQ sauce.. love love love..

We had our usual for ice cream.. soft serve vanilla for me and forbidden chocolate for the Peanut. I don't like cherries that much, so Peanut stole mine..

So in short, I'm proud of myself for not backing out of getting what I really wanted and proud that I didn't go home and jump on the treadmill, or beat myself up. Ok, I did a little bit, but it was legitimately about the fact that the ice cream was bothering my stomach. I was thinking, "why the fudge can't Friendly's make a dairy free soft serve ice cream and save my stomach and my skin?!?!" Soft serve vanilla ice cream is the only thing I would never turn down. Never. Ever.

And to all my blog friends, I thank you so much. All your comments mean so much to me..

Tomorrow is the last day of Sunday School for the Peanut so there is a "party" at church. I'm excited about going! I have to get up early and make sure I drive my mother there. While I was writing this post, I heard yells coming from downstairs. I'm glad even though I'm as blind as a bat, I hear EVERYTHING. My mother went outside in the rain, in her flip flops, to take the trash out, was coming back in the door and she slipped and fell in the doorway. I ran downstairs to find out what happened.. I thought it was the cat howling.. only to find my poor mom sprawled out on the back porch. My parents are at the hospital as we speak, my dad thinks my mom's foot is sprained.. The fun never stops around here!

Well darlings, have an awesome rest of the weekend, I'll check in tomorrow!!!

The Battle

2010-06-11T13:21:00.000-04:00

Well it's FINALLY FRIDAY!!!!! I can't believe it, I'm SO happy for the weekend you guys have no idea! Well you might.. It's a double good time.. pay day and the weekend. I'm always happy on those days!

So today is the Peanut's LAST DAY of 2nd grade! I can't believe it! She's getting so big!!!! No seriously she is, I'm convinced she is already a full head taller than I was at that age!

So what to do.. what to do.. I am planning on taking her out tonight for dinner. Someplace cheap and quick and easy. My options are as follows: Red Robin, Five Guys and a Burger, Friendly's, or Picadilly Pub, or IHop. I don't want to go to "the Pic". It's definitely a townie spot, complete with crazy waitresses and too expensive for what you get food. Red Robin seems like a good idea. Since Monday I've been dreaming about a big huge burger for some reason. I won't share what else I dreamed about though.. it's too crazy!

This morning though, when I got my lazy butt up to workout- I reached for my Pilates DVD and instead ended up with Hip Hop Abs. A way, I suppose to burn a lot of calories in preparation for the burger tonight.

The whole time I was working out, my thoughts were consumed with ED thoughts. Move faster, don't rest in between sets.. Then at work, I sat here thinking to myself.. "how the hell am I going to be able to do this tonight? What was I thinking?". I haven't been out to eat in the longest time it seems like. I struggled with a nutrition calculator on the Red Robin website trying to get ONE of the burgers down to under 600 calories (when my starting point was 1200, I'd say, I'm on the right track!). But how do I not screw this up? How do I not panic in the middle of the restaurant and scare the Peanut? Should I put aside my craving and just get something I know I'd feel more comfortable eating like soup and salad? Wait, I hate salad. Soup and.... soup. It's like, I want a freakin burger, so why can't I just put aside my fears and just go for it???
Who else has had this happen? And what have you done if anything about it?
I did however, have a salmon burger last night. But it was in fear food rage when I first thought about taking the Peanut out to dinner. Maybe if I have this, it will quiet the urge to eat a burger...

No, try again. This is not going well today...

I'll let you know how I make out tomorrow..

We'll Have Fun, Fun, Fun

2010-06-10T08:59:00.000-04:00

Happy Thursday to all, today is the BIG Audit day.. yesterday was just a prep! So I have my monkey suit on, ready to rock the Support world with my insane skills and ability to help customers out.

Yea right. And then I woke up!

But I do have my suit on today. And my fancy shoes.. I usually wear jeans and sneakers to work, so this is a challenge. It's harder to run down the hall to get a glass of water, I have slow down and strut. Lol, no I don't have to, but I do anyway!

Since I don't have a lot of time, I'll just get to it. I was so exhausted today, I failed to wake up in time to do my yoga, or anything else for that matter. I raced out the door, my eyes kinda bleary.. only woken up by my injection of coffee in the form of an-ultra fine powder. Seriously, if I could snort this stuff I would.

I forgot to snap a picture of my super yummy breakfast, but it looked kinda like my lunch yesterday.. (my tummy still hurts from my near accidental intestinal suicide yesterday..)

Delish! I hope to be having a giveaway again really really soon! So you might have a shot at winning some of those Justin's squeeze packs. I literally ripped it open and licked the wrapper clean. Nice image, no?

The cat is sick.. she has a massive ear infection... I legit feel REALLY bad for her. She has been testy lately (even more so than she usually is) and yesterday morning she was sitting with her left ear flat and her head tilted to one side.. I grabbed her and looked in her ear- there is was. Junk! Yuck! My dad took her to the vet.. she was so scared, it took three people (my dad, the vet, and a tech) to hold her down - plus she was bundled in a blanket. Kitty is FIERCE!!!!!! Hopefully she'll get better fast though!! She is certainly riding the sympathy train to fat-ville because she is complaining for food around the clock and I kept feeding her cuz I feel bad!
Peanut and I made corn muffins last night too.. I should clarify.. I made them, she licked the bowl clean.. But these, were delicious.. seriously.. the best ever since I went GF/DF..

I'll definitely be buying these again!

Well darlings, I'm off to finish up my work. Hopefully I don't get us all fired or something today.. Have an awesome Thursday.. I'll be checking in on all your bloggies later today!!!!!

12 Step Program

2010-06-09T09:09:00.000-04:00

Happy Hump Day everyone! Sorry for not posting last night! As you may know, or may not know; I am a major Glee fan. I love love love love that show!!! The season finale was on last night and I was glued to my TV for that whole hour, didn't move, just watched.. I laughed, I cried (yes bawled like a baby..). I was excited to see though they are going to re-play the entire season this summer- yay for re-runs!!!

So as for my excuse as to why I didn't post yesterday at all.. I'm not sure I have one! I did go to bed LATE on Monday, woke up Tuesday in kind of a daze, worked out a little before going to work.. but brought my stuff to work to go for a walk at lunch time..

Got the email we are being audited today and Thursday. I cleaned up my cube and made a little home for my voodoo doll I have.

I hope the auditors have a sense of humor!

Here's where we get a little personal again. I had a mini-meltdown last night because I realized that my digestive system has been slightly irregular lately. Ok, alot!!!!! I don't want to get into TMI, but years ago, when I was a little more crazy than I am now- I was majorly addicted to diet pills and laxatives. It caused my body months of chaos and stress and I really really believe that it led to my intolerance of several foods.. Since I haven't been eating up to snuff lately- when I do eat up to snuff- my body suffers. Long story short, last night I drank some Senna Leaf tea.. nope didn't do anything but make my stomach hurt like crazy. I've been on the verge of puking all morning so far and now am guzzling gingerale.. YUCK! I hope this sick feeling passes ASAP! I can't afford to vomit on the auditors shoes today!!!

(slight interjection.. those are my new glasses for those of you who "follow" me on Facebook when I announced I was a part of the four-eyed geek club.. cute aren't they?!)
So I'm hoping this doesn't adversely affect my workouts! I DID DO YOGA THIS MORNING! I'm still sticking with my plan, no worries!

New snack.. this was SO yummy! It tasted like peanut butter cookie dough.. YUMMMMM!

This coming weekend, I've got a bunch of things going on... I have to go to the consignment shop and giveaway most of my clothes and hope to make some money off of them. Then bring $500 dollars worth of stuff to the Salvation Army to donate. I'm getting rid of all of my clothes that are borderline too small for me and keeping all the clothes that are too big and fit just right. I'm throwing the Baby Bear out the window ok???? I'm tired of looking in my closet and seeing the old clothes, going, "oh my god, why can't I wear that anymore??".. So I won't look at them!

By the way, I'm also starting a Shoe-aholics Anonymous.. I need a 12 step program.. I am donating/selling 25 pairs of shoes. And I still have 20 pairs in my closet.. YIKES!

Monday Blahs

2010-06-07T21:22:00.000-04:00

Here I am... draggin' butt on a Monday night. I really really want to stay up late and watch True Beauty tonight, but I don't want to be too tired tomorrow either! Does anyone else have disicpline and go to bed when they are "supposed to" or do you throw that to the wayside when something "happens" or a good TV show comes on?

Well I did have to swtich it up and do Pilates tonight when I got home instead of yoga. My stomach appreciated it I think! I swear adding Pilates to my workouts really amped up the way my stomach looks. It's not perfect, but it's getting a whole lot better!

So I was also planning on doing another portion of a workout besides the 30 minutes of Pilates, but I'm too sleepy. I'm going to have to start taking my iron supplements again.. I'm getting too tired too fast lately! How did I used to run on 4 hours of sleep before???? It's just NOT possible anymore!

So my lunch today was pretty basic.. I'm trying to use up my bread that I was telling you about yesterday- so I stole some of my mom's egg salad :) I hope she doesn't notice that I licked the bowl clean. I LOVE egg salad. Does anyone else or am I the only one? Anyway, in recent months I have convinced my mom that "vegan mayo" is the way to go, so not only is it healthy, with no saturated fats or raw eggs in it, it's the perfect companion when you want to do something stupid. Like de-veganize it. I can't help it guys! I have to de-veganize vegan mayo- I just don't like the fake meats!

Yummy!!!!! Healthy fats galore!!

For a snack I had more healthy fats, a PURE chocolate brownie bar. Super sweet, chock full of nuts, good fats, rich chocolate flavor. I don't really like walnuts, but I do like this bar..

Right now, Big Bang Theory is on.. only one of my FAVORITE shows on TV.. think I will brush my teeth and TRY to be in bed on time. I'm SO cool!!!!!

Hot And Muggy

2010-06-06T20:59:00.000-04:00

It was another day of crazy weird weather! I can't stand it! It was SO hot, muggy, more tornado watches... blah! Now I'm in my room typing away with the AC on.. watching Real Housewives of New Jersey.. wild and strangely gross. On both counts :)

First of all, I'm so happy to see more readers! Welcome!

Now.. a round-up of the day. Yoga for 60 minutes this morning. It was flippin' intense and soooooo sweaty! I love power yoga because I feel like a rubber band after and super strong.

That was my only workout for the day, I would have gone on a bike ride but I remembered I was supposed to be going to church. I went and I was really glad I did- the sermon was really awesome and hit home for me. Went home and got busy! Lunch was boring, more grilled cheese sandwiches! The bad thing about Gluten-Free breads is that unless you freeze it you have to use it up in a few days or it goes bad. Nice huh? I typically freeze mine, but I left it out on the counter the other day...... and didn't want to throw it out, so I stuck it in the fridge- it was still ok for grilled cheese : )

Well I need to sign off for the night.. but dinner and stuff was just about as boring as lunch! Hope everyone is doing awesome and gets a lot of rest! Tomorrow is Monday (duh) and I'm sure I'll be dying in the morning.. UGH! Good night!

Doesn't Get Any Better

2010-06-05T22:06:00.000-04:00

Two a.m. and I'm rudely awakened by a thunderstorm - the weather has been absolutely nuts lately! It took me a while to get back to sleep- but I did.. and dragged myself out of bed. I rolled over and hit the yoga mat. It was still open on the floor where I left it the night before. Good job me...

I don't have any pictures for you tonight, but here is the list of stuff we did today.

8:30-9 a.m. Yoga : )
9- 10:30ish Clean, clean, clean, clean. watched a little bit of Flip This House...
10:30- 11 a.m. Turbo Jam!!!!!!!!!! I love this work out!
late morning to mid-afternoon watched more Flip This House and Disney movies with the Peanut.
someone posted on Facebook there was free ice cream at Friendly's.. so off we went in the heat and steam of the day to go snag a scoop of ice cream. It was cold. And very yummy.
Came home, cleaned some more.
More food. Grilled cheese sandwiches for dinner.

Bike ride after dinner.
Home.
Shower again because the humidity makes it feel like I am drenched anyway. Figured I would smell nice at the same time.
Intercepted a panicked call from C. He wanted to know if there was a tornado touch down. Laughed. Turned on the weather channel and saw there was a tornado watch going on for my county. I'm safe, please no one worry!

Now? Bed! Pictures tomorrow for sure, I'm just too lazy to go back downstairs and get my camera...

Good night!!!!

Not Exactly What I Meant..

2010-06-04T22:21:00.000-04:00

Hi all! Happy Friday to you!!!!! It's late over here- and I just got home a little while ago. I thought about diving into bed and calling it a night, then I remembered, my sorry ass did not get out of bed on time this morning. No yoga, no sleepy time. So I turned on my TV to Criminal Minds and went to town. Or rather, went to my mat. I did my obligatory 20 minutes. I feel pretty good now- all nice and stretched out!

So today I brought my breakfast with me because I was running so late. Remember how I was talking about healthier fats?

Yea I don't think this kind of fat was what I had in mind! Dang munchkins! And dang Gail for bringing them in!
I ate my breakfast anyway. It was tasty! I love almond butter, it's soooooo good! And it definitely is an easy way to get in some "healthy fats".

Well I'm off to bed all! G'night! Catch up tomorrow!!!

101 Days Till..

2010-06-03T15:56:00.000-04:00

Last night I was lying in bed wondering what my problem was. I have been hungry. And tired. And tired of being hungry and tired. Mood swings, stomach problems. Headaches and bodyaches. I've been stressed out about money, work, life, planning, not having any support from C's family, etc. It doesn't help that I've also been in a pollen induced coma lately due to the high pollen count around here. It's all overwhelming sometimes and I want to snap. Instead I usually just cry. Yesterday "prevening" I did and I thought there might be some solace in my yoga mat. I did an hour and a half of yoga and damn did it feel GREAT. I loved every second of it. It reminded me of my old runner's high.. I've been having a lot of pain in my foot, so running is out- even though it's still ok to bike ride so far.. so biking is my only form of cardio lately... When I was done I was starving. Yoga burns mucho calories for me I think!
So anyway- while I was reaching deep into myself (my soul people... GOD YOU GUYS ARE GROSS!) I thought about how I should do a yoga challange- maybe that will distract my mind if I have a place to go for 30 minutes everyday where I can focus on not what is going wrong, but what my body is doing right. I'm not tooting my own horn here but I can go into some pretty freaky yoga poses just from being uber flexible in my hips. Oh man I miss my hubby... (sorry now I'm being gross)
Then I read Biz's blog today (by the way- nice new layout Biz!) and she started a 101 Days of Summer Challange. I missed the start date so technically I am going for 99 days of Summer... but Biz signed me up anyway!!!

My challenge to myself:
1. Eat more healthy fats.
- I don't count calories, but I'm not stupid. I'm not eating enough fat. Maybe that's why I've been such a bum lately.

2. Do at least 30 minutes of yoga daily.
- this may change as my body protests so much stretching. But I'm open to a couple of days of Pilates in exchange for yoga.

3. Biking 15 miles a week
- I don't know how I will keep track of mileage but I have a general idea of how far I can go based on my previous running routes.

Please note. I AM NOT trying to lose ANY more weight. I don't want to say what my weight is right now as that might trigger some people. Every body is different and carries their weight in different places. Right now, every pound I have is in my butt and my boobs. So if I have new readers coming over from different places, please don't ask what I weigh, I won't share!! *hugs*

What does this mean for the blog? I gotta start posting everyday.. FKGLODSL>A>A WHA?!!!
I knew you'd all be shocked! Even if it's just a little blip and there are no pictures. No humor. No jokes. No food. I'm gonna flippin' post everyday. If I happen to have an online stalker who reads everyday.. if I miss one, make sure you smack me.

I will try to have a little ditty on food and such that I'm eating, but I can't make any promises that some of my posts will be beyond.. "FML- I did my yoga. Now beat it." HAHA.

Here is my little badge to make it official.. Now I'm IN!

TODAY- I already did my yoga ; ) this morning, bright and early.. It was nice to go back to the mat after just doing a bunch of yoga last night.

FOOD: Using my leftover chicken, and throwing together many things I had hanging around my freezer, I managed to come up with a MEAL. *GASP!!!!!* I know you are all shocked! It's so easy! Even all you peeps who have commented and said you are terrible cooks, this was so terribly easy. Toss frozen veggies in a pan. Heat. Toss in sauce. Heat some more. Toss in grilled chicken. Heat some more and WhAMO.. we have a meal!

Here is what went into it... Some nice Gluten-free teriyaki sauce... It smelled
SO good! I loved it!

I should have thought of this the other day when everyone was eating Chinese and I was picking at rice and an egg roll!

Well thats all I got for you guys! I better get back to work over here. My phone call time is UP- time to work on EMAILS. BAHHHH!

Wonder

2010-06-02T08:46:00.000-04:00

Memorial Day weekend is a brief memory for me. It seems so far away, even though it was only just the other day. Anyone else have time feel like it's flying by but it's moving at a snail's pace? I suppose.. since it's already Hump Day - the week is half over and I shouldn't be complaining! But I realized that I never posted anyrthing from Mem Weekend.. how can I ditch you like that?! Crazy me!

So for starters, I worked on Monday.. What? That's un-American isn't it??? But it was for a good cause- I was making the OT. I realize that I don't talk about money very often- but I'm wayyyy struggling. So that one day of working, paid for one week of camp for the Peanut. And I will gladly give up a nice holiday if it means she gets a week of learning and fun and excitement. And it was NICE outside! I couldn't believe it!

Let's run down the schedule here.. Friday was the 28th- the 27th was my parents 33rd anniversary. Holy crap! And they are still going strong- even though they drive each other crazy. Well anyway, my grandmother ordered Chinese food for us.. naturally, not asking anyone what they wanted besides my father- who wants IT ALL! So nothing came that I could eat, so I picked at the rice, ate an egg roll and called it a day. My grandmother got upset- but hey- what can you do?

Saturday, I got up early and worked out.. then the Peanut and I went for a long bike ride- it was nice to get out in the bright morning sunshine. She is doing great at bike riding now- trying to do tricks and all that. Meanwhile, I'm behind her screaming STOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!! OMG WHAT ARE YOU CRAZYYYYYY!!!?!??!! Mama can't afford no ER trips!!! This kid is going to have to be in a BUBBLE till she's 18! Mild stroke over and done with and we went shopping!
She needed a bathing suit, new dresses for church, and new shorts. Oh and new sneakers. Got all that and went food shopping. My favorite part of the day! We stocked up on Larabars, fruits and veggies (I buy frozen veggies cuz I'm LAZY) and some new snackies to supplement the cans of tuna and big container of yogurt I have. Here are some of the goods...
(this I am dying to try!!!! I need to find some ground turkey in my freezer- all you do is add salsa, and ground meat.. and DONE! Hamburger Helper.. but GF and DF style.. Yay!!!!!)

I picked this up cuz it was on sale.. I'm not sure I'll like it because blueberries do awful things to my stomach. I'm hoping because they are not fresh I'll be ok! It just looks SO YUMMMMY!

I thought of Sarah when I saw these.. This is nut free.. and tastes yum.. It's a little on the sweet side- so I would use it in plain yogurt- I put mine in vanilla and it was a bit TOO sweet. Still- nutrition wise- this was on par..

I can't wait to try these either. What should I put on them? A veggie burger? A huge juciy hamburger? Chicken????

I think that's about it.. So let's go over to Sunday! Another celebration for my parent's anniversary! We had a cookout and had all the cousin's and siblings over. It was a fun little gathering.. tons of food to be found. Here was my plate..

I was carbo-loading.. we have chicken, beans, and Goya Mexican rice. Gotta love it! Also consumed were some chips, and lots of pink lemonade. No dessert, because the Peanut and I were on our way to a birthday party for Melo.
I won't even get into what happened at the party. Let's go with the good stuff. Or semi-good stuff.

Note to parents.... Bouncy house + 90 degree weather + 20 kids does not = FUN. It was cool for about 5 minutes. But I got some good pictures!
Lissette on the bouncy house- she had wayy too much fun!
Birthday boy. He is crabby cuz he is wearing a Yankee shirt- GO SOX! Nani- one of my nieces, she is too cute!

Well that is about it! Hope everyone is having an AWESOME week!!!!! I'll be blog reading so look for my comments... ; )

I Would Walk 100 Miles...

2010-05-27T11:10:00.000-04:00

Hi dears! How is every one's week going??? It's going fabulously over here. Just so you know, this is my 100th post on this blog!!!! What what now? I've been around much longer though, just on a different site. : ) So exciting!

Yesterday we had a meeting at work. Typically, they are snoozers, especially when it involves low lights and NO food. The only way I stay awake in meetings is by sucking down Diet Crack. Damn our "healthymagination" campaign!!!!!

Way back in the day one of my friends used to work for my company in the same department. She used to take notes during meetings like crazy. I thought she was nuts until I asked her one day what her notes were on, because I was barely keeping my eyes open and she was furiously scribbling away. Turns out she had notebooks full of grammer and word mistakes done by whoever was leading the meeting. My poor boss. God love him, but I think he has the same public speaking disease I have where your mouth moves faster than your brain does and you combine words, mix up sentences, etc.

I thought I would share some of my thoughts I had during the meeting, because I decided to do a new approach- where I just wrote down whatever I was thinking about. Because it sure as hell wasn't about processes, IT systems, and escalations. Along with some food commentary. I'm in a very strange mood right now. Sorry!

1. BORED. BORED. BORED. Why can't we learn something NEW?!

(Rice works, sea salt chips, consumed at my desk... something NEW!)
2. I wonder if we will be out in time for me to run to Dunkins?

(no such luck.. natural sugar it is!!! Funky Monkey bananas!!)
3. I need to stop at the hair salon, my hair feels like crap- I ran out of my Morrocanoil- I wonder if anyone notices my crappy fluffball of hair..

(speaking of fluffballs....)
4. Just looked at the white board. Thought it said PORN. Rubbed my eyes. Looked again. OH MAN, it says PORTAL.
(a food word that sorta ryhmes with ____ NOOCH- sprinkled on top of steamed veggies. Am I the only one who thinks the code word for nutrional yeast sounds dirty? haha)
5. Scott's going to Prague????? Why the hell didn't they ask me to go???

Cuz I can't leave my little superstar for two weeks.. that's why.. she needs help with the laundry, playing piano and annoying the cat (see her in the background???)

Anyway, that's all I got! I gotta go to lunch! Time to sign up the superstar for SUMMERCAMP!!!!!!!!! happy almost weekend!

All The Small Things

2010-05-25T14:06:00.000-04:00

Good day people! How are you? It's been so long since I visited.. I literally have had a million things I could be blogging about, and the pics to prove it and I have NOTHING to say! Me? Speechless? Is that even possible? I ALWAYS have something to say!
Couple things..

I did not babysit.

I'm not sure what happened, but drama unfolded. I really don't like being compared to homewreckers, hookers, or hoodrats nor do I like dealing with them! At any rate- SIL found someone else to watch the kids, even though despite the drama I was willing to do it and jumped through several hoops to get it all set up. But in the end, it was just me and the Peanut all weekend. Cheaper, quieter, less stress all around. End of story. OK. Enough of me blabbering!

Saturday I used my coupon to Qdoba given to me by one of my co-workers. I forgot to properly thank him, so I will publicly out him and say THANKS FOR THE COUPON MIKE! He donated blood, and I got to eat. Whooooo! And here's what we had!

Peanut's plate: chips, with a chicken taco- hold the guac and the sour cream. She was holding her taco, I was stealing chips..

My plate- I got one of those "pick 2" kind of deals.. tortilla soup (the effing bomb there!) and a grilled quesadilla. I know what you are thinking, CHEESE? FLOUR? GIRRRRRLLLLLL? Every once in a while, I just can't help myself. I'm only happy that my reaction to cheese and gluten merely involves a stomach ache and a mild rash on my right leg. Bizzare yea. Tolerable enough to eat cheese and flour tortilla's once in a while? YEA.

I love this soda.. it has 2 servings of fruit in it- so I was happy!

The rest of the weekend went like this.. bike riding, sleeping, bike riding, sleeping, working out, eating, bike riding, sleeping. Are you noticing a pattern here? I have a child who loves to be outside riding her bike, I can't say no to that! But let's just say if C was home, I'd being saying no to something else becaues my ass feels like.... well. I just won't go there!

I totally have MORE MORE MORE to say, so I might be behind in my blogging a bit- just bear with me.. I'll get up to date and you might see a post from May sometime soon. OK?!

Hugs to everyone, I'll also be working on catching up on my dang google reader.. I feel so lost without you all!

Say Ahhh...

2010-05-18T08:46:00.000-04:00

Is it Tuesday? Really? Have I really been gone that long? Sweet niblets!!
Well, I am back, it's been a LONG week already and it's only 8:48 in the morning (well it was when I started writing this anyway!)

I don't have too much in terms of words to say. But my nephew Melo turned 1. I love him so much I feel like I birthed him sometimes- and he doesn't seem to mind that I act like that either! I'm always getting hugs and kisses from him - what a flirt!!!! So here are the pics from our little cake-cutting ceremony on Sunday - his actual party is in two weeks, more on that in a second.

Here is he is eating the ice cream cake...adorable isn't he??

It was a good day with all the kids, I wish I took more pics! I have to save some of my memory though for this weekend when I have 6 children at my house for 4 days. Please, someone ask me WHY, HOW, WHAT. WHY did I say yes? HOW did they convince me to say yes? WHAT was I on when I said yes?
I'm weak when it comes to the kids! My SIL asked if I would babysit for her cherubs (qty 3) this weekend so she can go to Vegas (ummmm no invite??). I said ok for a three day weekend- how long can one stay in Vegas and stay sober and wealthy? Then it suddenly turned into a five day trip and I had to take three days off work for it! Yikes! So then, my niece (qty 1) and my BIL's younger kids (qty 2) want to come as well. If anyone is looking for me... I'll be the one with the mangy hair, sweatpants, with the crazed look on her face. Yep. For sure! I'm hoping the weather is nice, we will just walk around the neighborhood and go to the park and play outside. Please.. pray for sunshine!
So what was on muy food menu for the weekend? I have to get back to work over here, so I'll just put up the pics, you can bask in my food glory for now.. more later this week, if I haven't killed myself..
This pizza was pretty good- nutrition facts a little daunting but I sucked it up and ate the whole thing..

My go-to snack!

Chicken nuggets and fries! Don't worry, they were the good kind, no MSG or HFCS here ;)

And the best GF-DF french toast.. ever!!!!! I love this stuff! Highly recommended!

Well- I'm back off to work- I'll be trying to get caught up on blogs today- sneaking them between emails, so don't be surprised if you see a comment from me today!!!

Snackage

2010-05-13T09:03:00.000-04:00

Snacks have been in high consumption lately. I've been lazy. I've been super tired. I've had the motivation to cook at 5:15, then I get sidetracked by searching for uniforms or ballet shoes, and it all goes out the window. Thankfully, they've been good, healthy snacks. So I don't feel so bad. Hopefully, one of these days, I'll cook a meal.
Imagine if I said that when C were home. If I didn't cook everyday, I got harassed. He used to say I was starving him! Lol. Luckily, I knew he was joking most of the time.
Well, I'm glad you guys liked my hair and thought crazy girl was a fake funky looking chick.

Moving right along!

Snacks!

This first shot is not MY snack, but the Peanut first foray into eating SANDWICHES! What, what now?????

Enter the peanut butter and jelly sandwich for my little peanut. I can't believe at the age of 7, she is finally eating PB&J. I think my mother gave us PB&J instead of formula when we were babies! Verdict? She loved it! I cut off the crust (even though that's the best part!) and she gobbled that stuff right down! Christina, should this go in your Friday Firsts???

Breakfast, double the waffle and multiply by 4 days in a row this has been my breakfast. I love those squeeze packs...

I found this in Hannafords a while back, it does actually look and taste like Spaghettio's. Another food I think my mother gave me instead of formula when I was a baby!
One can has 267 calories, so it was like a big snack, add a piece of fruit or a veggie and it's a small meal. I had two cans, so I had it both ways.

Up here in NE, we have Ocean State Job Lot. I have no clue if anyone else has them around? At OCJL you find the most RANDOM food items ever- and they are all incredibly cheap- it kind of reminds me of Trader Joes, except right across from the dates and pasta sauce are flannel shirts circa 1996. So anyway, my mom found this Bob's Red Mill granola there and she picked it up thinking it would be good sprinkled over fruit. It's also good, over yogurt, as you can see here!

That about does it for FOOD FOR ME. To answer everyone's question, YES I am feeling alot better in terms of myself. Although, I do have to admit, even when eating MORE (late night Oreos and bowls of cereal- this is a shout out to YOU!), I'm still not gaining weight. I think this might be a testament that my body NEEDS to eat more and so it's happily accepting the extra fuel and it's not going straight to my ass- glory be! So I'm lifting my coffee mug to the pantry! : )
Happy Thursday everyone, I'm getting back to work, I've been a little slow about reading blogs this week too but I'll get back to it ASAP!

Mother's Day

2010-05-10T14:48:00.000-04:00

Hi guys! Happy Monday!

This is a quick post because I know there are a FEW people who are waiting to see pictures of my hurrr. I LOVE IT. I feel soooooooooo awesome with the new do! I definitely enjoyed the pampering for a little bit and it was good to catch up with Tara, my hairdresser. She loved how my hair felt, and her salon just got in tons of MoroccanOil hair supplies, so now all I have to do is ride my bike down the street and buy some!

But YES! My grandmother is CRAZY! I suppose she could say that she likes me better as a blonde, but she's like adamant about it. Everytime she sees me (and she's down the hall... YIKES) she tells me.. She made that comment to me and my mom, when my mom was braiding my hair one night (it's too long for me to braid myself) and even my mother was like.. WHAT??? I didn't want to tell my grandmother how many guys go ga-ga over a big smile, blue eyes, and dark hair. Too many too count! Needless to say, I am not my grandmother's favorite grandchild!

But what can we expect from an old lady who opened a bag of Doritios before paying for them to make sure they were fresh???????????

Mother's Day was GOOD! The Peanut did a great job picking out presents. I got a manicure kit (God knows I need purty nails) and a D & D gift card along with a million coupons. Plus a really cute card. I loved it! We went to church, ate lunch, tried to go for a bike ride (too cold!) and watched lots of Disney Channel. All in all, I couldn't ask for a better day if I were getting a massage by the beach on the Virgin Islands..

Wait a minute. I think I would have preferred that!

C wished he were home with me. Last year Mother's Day I had a wonderful time (no I didn't we had dinner reservations and SOMEONE *cough* baby mama *cough* didn't come and pick her daughter up until after 10!) Well, in order to look like this:

you gotta work at it.. I guess. Yep there we go. There's my arch-nemisis. Thank God, I'm merely the Ugly White Bitch. She doesn't know my name, doesn't know where I live, or that I can write beyond an 8th grade level. Or that I can literally find ANYTHING about ANYONE. Never leave anything you don't want me to see.. online... MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

And ending the post on a less "Amy looks like a pyscho look" here are pics I jacked from C's cousin's Facebook page. (ummmmmmmmm... oxymoron in my sentence, find it!)

The old folks are his grandparents who live in Puerto Rico. The guy with the funky moustache is his uncle and the little peanut in the pic is my Joanna. Whom I miss with ALL MY HEART. I LOVE YOU JOANNA! Poor Joanna doesn't deserve to live where she is living right now, I wish I could give her a stable home while C is away, but I have to be patient.. she is SUCH a good girl with a heart of gold.

Anyway, I'm back to work.. I have food stuffs for you in the next couple of days.. YAY!

Creature of Habit

2010-05-07T12:48:00.000-04:00

Happy Friday people! How are you all? Warm welcome to any new readers who have stopped by in the last few days.. I'm really enjoying reading all the new blogs and having new commenters.. makes me feel POPULAR! : ) JK.

So let me just jump right into it now. I've been growing my hair out for about 4 years now. It's been on the long-ish side for a while and is now almost down past my bra line. My bangs are in the way, my hair is in the way. When I have it in a ponytail and I'm running, my ponytail gets stuck in my armpit. Ohhhhhh so sexy. I measured it a couple of weeks ago and it looks like I have 21 inches of hair. I'm glad that's not my armpit hair. I love it. It's now super soft and silky from the hair treatment I've been using on it, but it's just SOOOOOO flippin' long!

This stuff, has seriously, changed my hair and my life. No more frizzy hair! No more straw like texture! It's soft, its touchable! I love it!
Tomorrow, I'm going to get a cut. I'm almost nervous! I want to do something different! But alas, I'm a creature of habit and my hair dresser is scared of C. He is fighting for me to keep it long and dark! And the last time he talked to her, he said, "don't let her cut her hair short!!!!!!! PLEASE!"

My grandmother said a few weeks ago that it was a good thing I had dark hair, I didn't have to worry about anyone paying attention to me. Because I looked so unattractive no one would notice me.

I didn't know how to take that. But now you know why I don't hang out with my grandmother very often.

I love my long dark hair. But be prepared. Some shit is goin' down with it. I hope my hairdresser doesn't get too nervous about it. She tries to be an undercutter, not an overcutter. : ) I'll definitely be putting up before and after pics!

So Mother's Day is on Sunday. What are YOU doing for your momma? I have no idea what the Peanut is getting me!!!! I asked if she would get me one of those little massager thingies (no, not THAT kind of massager!) for my back. Who knows what she will come up with! I got MY mother a knife set, so she could kill my dad when the summer is up and she is sick of him being up her butt all the time...
ONLY KIDDING. I did get her a DINNER knife set, we have 1.5 million spoons, 1.2 million forks, and 4 knives. I have no idea where all the knives went, so I got a set of 12 from Target for $12. Last year I got my mother orange juice glasses. I tend to buy people the things they muse about while standing around... and then they go, "oh my God! I really needed these!"

Anyway, onto my eats! Side note, I thought I had more on here. OY VEY.

Salmon burger, on Kinnikinnik white rice bread, with a slice of rice "cheese". Soooooo good, but the salmon sat kinda heavy in my stomach. Blech.
Oh and I got this card for my anniversery from Charlie, he's on time for everything, can't you tell?????

So I tried a new snack today - trying to break the mold of a creature of habit here...dried papyaya. I bought it at Whole Foods a while back and just finally cracked it open today. It looks like a giant sour patch worm.

I think I was expecting it to TASTE like a giant sour patch worm too. I ate two pieces and didn't finish the rest. No flavor. Not even sweet. What gives??? If I'm going to get cavaties for the 23 grams of pure sugar in these babies, I want it to taste good too!
Well dearests.. I'm off to the fair! (what movie is that line from?????? anyone???? please tell me someone knows it and I'm not the ONLY dork out there who loves old school Disney movies.. (that was a hint!)
Have a GREAT weekend, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all the mommies out there! Katie, Sammie.. I'm talkin' to you!!!!!!!

Open The Skies

2010-05-04T21:05:00.000-04:00

I had a beautiful post. Talking about how well I was doing the last couple of days, despite it being C's birthday today (Happy Birthday sweetness!) and I was upset about being apart then. I was doing ok, a little tired. A little worn down. But I hadn't thought about tearing myself down.

All your comments made me smile by the way. I love you guys.

I was complaining today to C about being away from each other on his birthday. Trying to work out at the same time (he always knows when I'm working out and calls me then. I'm not sure how he does it). Then I changed really quick and grabbed the Peanut to go to the store and buy some food, I was hungry.

My mom stopped me before I left and said, "just so you know in case you notice your dad looks a little down today.. he lost his job".

I think I had a hot flash, followed by a cold freeze all over myself. My mom breezed out the door at that point, running late for a rehearsal and there I was standing in the kitchen to think about all this.

My poor father..

I cried, still took Peanut to the store, and spent 20 minutes staring at shampoo bottles in Target. I bought some shampoo for my mop (definitely needed). Then headed to Hannafords where I stared at the food for another 25 minutes. Not really putting anything in my basket- instead I picked stuff up for Peanut.

We left the store and I'm blinking back tears, crying for my dad. My other half. My own self. I wasn't strong enough to stand on my own two feet suddenly. I felt weak and tired and helpless. My body was screaming for relief and I yelled out in my head, "what's next God???"
I got in the car and we started to head home, Peanut still chattering away behind me.

I looked up suddenly startled by the sky.

I see those shoulders bend all weighted by the thought
One more day to carry on, now, carry on
Trouble she cannot shake
Dreams she would like to take her away, yeah, away

I'll be waiting for the sun to rise
So I can start again by and by
I'll be looking o'er my head to the sky
See the clouds open wide, reveal my faith

I totally lost it at that moment. The Peanut and I got out of the car laughing. I had tears coming down my face while I was taking pictures. I haven't seen such a thing since I was a kid.

How amazing God can be, sometimes I don't know what to think. To tell you right there, it's going to be ok.

I don't know what my dad will do for now, but he has a lot of people rooting for him. I don't know how C will get by for now, but he prays everyday for the strength to make it through another day. And me?

I think I'll be ok.

"... He will lead them to the springs of life-giving water; And God will wipe away all their tears." Rev. 7:17

Amazing

2010-05-03T12:36:00.000-04:00

Welcome back to reality dears. It's Monday afternoon and you know what that means.

*cricket* *cricket*

Maybe you don't! Time for our weekend round-up. When's the last time I did this? I have no clue!

First up. Friday night. What did we do? It was pay-day so the Peanut and I took a break from the mundane and went out for ice cream. I will freely admit that I DID eat only a small snack in place of dinner so I could get ice cream. Not my most shining moment, indeed.

A beautiful Saturday can only mean a few things in my house. Early morning workout followed by park and a bike ride. But first, an "amazing" breakfast...

Amazing grass lovers, sorry but this tasted like Amazing ass. No lie, I spit it out right into the sink.. what am I doing wrong? I want to love this stuff!!!! Christina? Thoughts? Suggestions? Hold my nose and chug it?
With that giant fail over and done with, it was off to the park. I satisfied my need for fuel with some liquid cocaine in the form of home-made iced coffee and peanut buttered waffles. It would have to suffice. I needed major fuel to ride a dino and make my way across the monkey bars.

I slid down the slide too and got all dirty. Way sexy...
We made our way to the petting zoo where we saw lots of fuzzy friends. This guy loved to be pet. Look he has his eyes closed and everything, lol.

Look Katie... I totally thought of you when I saw these ostriches.. LOL YOU KNOW WHY!!!!!!
The rest of the day was spent bike riding and just being outside. I love being outside when it's gorgeous out. I feel alot better about just about everything. It has been a rough week and I'm really glad it was nice outside. To get out and just be free was so liberating!
Saturday night I actually WENT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What what now???

One of my friends was in town and we met another girlfriend out at a bar in in my neighborhood. I had a very large adult beverage and we talked. ALOT. Now they know what's going on with me and C - so that makes me feel alot better too. It was good to get stuff off my chest. I think alot of my feelings of loneliness don't stem from my high school friends ignoring me (because when they are in town, they never do) but mainly from C's sister. After the teacher tried to smooch me, she got mad at me because I let it slide, saying she would tell Charlie about it. I diffused the situation for a bit but then when the teacher asked me to be a part of the performance team, I think that was "over the top" for her. At least that's the only thing I can think of. In any case, we haven't spoken in a long time. And that hurts alot. She does only call when she needs something, and I'm not strong enough to not respond to her- but I'm thinking that I will not be from now on. So anyway, enough about that- I went out and had a good chat with the girls- it was fun to get out and people watch.

Sunday I slept late. No workout to speak of besides a little booty shakin' with my ipod while I cleaned the kitchen. One of the consequences of being a non-drinker, having a drink. The next day I'm useless.

Well I wasn't toooooo useless to go to the town fair. I went with Gina, the Peanut and my niece. We spent a small fortune and got sunburned, tossed around on rides, and hit on by fat guys. Note to self, NEVER dance where a fair worker can see you. Where do they find these people?!?!?!?!

I wanted to borrow this guys earrings. They were SOOOOOO hot!
I also snapped a shot of a woman whom I affectionately called chicken face but in the interest of being nicer and not burning your eyes out, I won't post it. HAHAHA. In case you don't remember, I have a sickness when I see unfortunate people I can't help but take a picture. Just remembering isn't funny enough for me...(please click that link to bring you to my last foray into paparazziness)

Well I ended up going to bed early after watching The Blind Side. Best movie I've seen in a long time.. if you haven't seen it, watch it! Great story, I laughed, I cried, I was grateful for all the blessings I have in my life. It was a wonderful end to the weekend.
Hope you guys are having a lovely day back into work.. : )

Stop Calling...

2010-05-01T10:10:00.000-04:00

Well this is just a quick post..

This happens to be one of my favorite songs this year. AND LOOK AT THESE GUYS!!!!! Too funny! This definitely MADE my day.

More to come, gotta busy day ahead ; ) ENJOY!!!!

It's Far From Over

2010-04-29T09:21:00.000-04:00

I just started and restarted this post about a million times. I can't think of words to say that will rightfully express what I'm feeling right now. I don't think there are any words to describe it. It's a mixture of relief, sadness, happiness, compassion, joy, and finally, a little peace.

Everyday it's a different struggle for me.

Everyday it's a different reason to feel down. To be angry with myself over something stupid.

But everyday I want to smack myself and say, "what the hell is the matter with you???"

Then I remember that there IS something the matter with me. And I can't fix it by myself. It can't be fixed with a pasta dinner. Or a pedicure. Or a book. Or repeating little mantras to myself. This is a deep seeded belief that I don't deserve what I have. That I don't deserve to be happy. Or thin. Or beautiful. Because what I see in the mirror is a reflection of what I think is inside. And that view is a distorted, freakish thing.

I remember meeting Charlie's ex for the first time two years ago, she is tall, thin, hair is gorgeous, skin is perfect. Her make-up was perfectly applied and her clothes trendy, new, and expensive. I literally almost passed out. Here I was, in sweat pants and a tshirt. I had showered but a ponytail held my hair back and I had minimal make-up on. I'll be honest, I was going to visit Charlie after he got arrested- so who the hell was I trying to impress? And WHO was she trying to impress?

She said, "who the fuck does she think she is? Look at her! I'm beautiful and she's fuckin' ugly. Why the fuck do you want her?"

I said nothing in reply, my face must have turned purple in shame. I thought Charlie was going to slap her though. From then on in, I was the ugly white bitch to her. And to me, I never forget words. Words are things you can never take back, even when said in a moment of anger. Charlie defended me, and has everytime she brings that day up to him- he thinks I'm beautiful. He thinks even though she's pretty to everyone else, she is ugly on the inside and I'm perfect. He is proud of me, because I'm everything she isn't. I work, I pay my bills, I'm a good mom, I have a perfect body (his words obviously), and best of all, I treat him like gold. He calls the 6 years he was living with her a prison sentence. But I remember that moment bringing back in the fear that I am not good enough. Why would he want me instead of her? I try to remember who she really is. And it works for the moment. I still get angry when I hear that he talked to her, mainly because, even after all this time, she still thinks I stole her man. Um hello wacko! NO! I'd just like to point out that C and this crazy biz-natch were broken up for 3 years when I met him!

Where am I going with all this stuff anyway? Oh yea. I really believe that one of the issues I have is not about my body. It's the reflection of how I feel about the inside of myself- coming out. It's that I'm not "enough". Enough what? Smart enough, friendly enough, good enough, popular enough, pretty enough. And when I feel not enough I turn to the only thing that makes sense to me. Beat up the vessel that carries all these human emotions, tendencies, and weaknesses around. Which is what I find alot of us do. Agree? The hardest thing to do is to believe how strong and beautiful we really are.
Wow, I can't believe I wrote that much.. I didn't mean to get so deep for a day after hump-day. I'll be working on self-reflection and learning to recognize what I am feeling and if I'm feeling that way because of some other emotion. Like am I saying I'm fat because I'm feeling sad about my friends not calling me... ever? Good plan no? Cognitive behavior therapy right here kids!!!!!!!! Change the way you think!

So I promised you food didn't I? I did.. Dinner.. and more dinner. Along with Shaun T, the sexy guy from Hip Hop Abs for dessert.

Here we have Van's gluten-free waffles with Almond Butter and Raspberry jelly. I stole three apple slices from the Peanut's plate.. haha. A smaller dinner because I had a huge lunch and a huge dinner on Tuesday night. I did end up making the rice and sausage mix. I used Al Fresco chicken sausage... holy deliciousness in a sausge and no I'm not talkin' about a man!!!!!

(my sense of humor is obviously still intact...)
Here is Shaun T up on my big screen TV. Look he's trying to give you a hug!!!!!!
I really think he's a little on the gay side, but he can be gay all he wants, as long as he's straight for me!!!!!!!!

Big plans this weekend. It's going to be sunny sunny and sunny. Tan. Tan. Tan. I need a tan! I will be bike riding. I will be running around like a mad-dog. And hopefully, heading out someplace with the Peanut. My goal is to go to Five Guys & A Burger with her, but I'm not sure that will end up happening.. maybe just for some frozen yogurt or something small like that. Let's not push it with burgers and fries!
If you are still reading after all this blabber, thank you, for your heartfelt words of support. They mean more to me than you will ever ever know. We are all in this together right?? *cue High School Musical soundtrack*. You guys rock my socks. :)

On To The Next One

2010-04-27T12:23:00.000-04:00

Wow... I don't even know what to say guys. First of all, thank you for all your sweet comments. I don't know what I would do without the support of blog world- seriously. I haven't had the chance to email everyone who commented or wrote.. but I promise I will.
I wish I could say that I have come back refreshed, joyous, and full of promise.
I wish I could say that I ate like a star all week, and didn't stare blankly into the pantry or fridge, only to walk away empty handed. My appetite and grief go hand in hand.
I wish I could say that my "real" friends were as supportive of this whole thing as my "bloggie" friends. I have been stubborn lately, and saying, "someone will call me. someone will reach out." and nothing. Does anyone want my phone number?!
I wish I could say I didn't cry every night.
I wish I could say anything brilliant, worthwhile, refreshing, profound. So many words just jumble up in my head and to make them come out on paper? Man that is a task.
I came across my journal I kept two years ago at around this time and I was *shocked* to see that my thought process about myself was quite honestly the same.
I wish I could say that I think in the last couple of years I have grown mentally and emotionally. Although I have CLEAR goals in my head- I think they are lost a little at this time.
I quit dance class.
My teacher was the creepo who tried to *molest* me a while back and as much as I wanted to keep dancing there and as much as I LOVE it, my gas tank, wallet, and mental health will thank me.

Instead I bought these two DVD's. Anasma Liquid Fusion Hip Hop/Belly Dancing. Um sexy much?! I'm really looking forward to getting them and they were really cheap. I will do them twice and they will pay for themselves compared to dance(my dance class was $10 per class).

Even though this post finds me still struggling, I do have faith that it will get easier and THIS TIME will not be forever. The future is way better than the misery of the present and as long as I'm still able to get up out of bed- I consider the day a success. Obviously, I need to work on my expectations ; )

That brings me to some of my eats. Like I said, lately this has been a hard area for me- BUT I'm a work in progress.

This was yummy.. I really liked it, even though I thought I wouldn't. I love eggs, so I thought this would end up being a poor substitute for scrambled eggs, but it was delightful, savory dish. The hash browns even had a "crunch" to them despite being nuked..
These weren't too bad. I bought a weeks worth of Attune bars because I wanted to see if my stomach would be able to handle it and react well. So far so good. I love chocolate so this was a good way to have some "functional chocolate".

Another snack I felt I needed to try. Please guys, don't go shopping with my daughter! Everything I picked up she made me throw in the cart. So when I pondered over these in the yogurt section of Hannafords and explained how they worked to her, she said, "oh just get them mom, seriously!!!". Yea, 7 going on 17 right here guys!
And then one more I got, you know, just for good measure..
Freeze-dried pineapple. It wasn't too bad, but I forgot that pineapple is one of those fruits that if it ain't cooked my mouth don't like it. So I ended up drinking about 5 glasses of water after eating these babies.

I did bake though. What? Me? Cook something? Yes, I know you are all shocked!! Another purchase the Peanut said I "needed to get" at Hannafords. She kills me!
Sorry it is such a crappy picture of the finshed product, but this was really good!!! I managed to spread out eating this through-out a few days, but it was hard to not eat it all in one sitting.
I added honey to the batter and used rice milk in place of water to make it "richer". YUM! Loved it! (P.S. Peanut painted my nails for me.. I think she wants to be my boss, always pushing me around, telling me what to do.. lol)

I should be cooking tonight. I have some chicken sausage in my fridge that needs to get used up. Plus some rice mix (you know I love my Goya rice...). I hope this post finds everyone who reads and comments blessed. Seriously because I feel blessed to be able to be a part of this community. You guys are awesome and really do make it all worthwhile.
*MAJOR HUGS*

And Yet Here We Are

2010-04-19T16:16:00.000-04:00

Hi guys.. how are you all? I'm doing ok I think.

I'll be taking the next few days off of blogging. My head isn't really with it right now and I don't think I can put my full heart into it. I'm still reading all your posts and laughing and crying right along with you. But I don't have anything inspirational to say. And I've definitely done more crying than anything else.

Tomorrow is my anniversary and I am having such a hard time being separated from C it's ridiculous. There are some days where it just, sucks, you know? So in order not to be a debbie downer or a negative nancy, I'm going to step back and refocus and hopefully by the end of the week I'll be ok about it.

I miss my Charlie.

I'll be around via email for sure, you wanna pop me a line I'm all ears (or eyes rather)
**edited because i'm sorry these pics are so freakin small. sheesh.. i'll have to fix that!**

What Day Is It Anyway?

2010-04-16T08:00:00.000-04:00

well, I'm sick as anything. I'll be back over the weekend to try and make up for my absence this week. But between my cold and migraines, I'm pretty wiped out.

Hope everyone is doing well and I'll catch up on everyone SOON!!!!

In the meantime here is what is going on in my hometown this week:

Mansfield, MA cuts afterschool activities..
As you know I am long winded and very passionate about alot of things.. so I won't share my opinion here- what do you all think?

I Gotta Ask You..

2010-04-12T21:06:00.000-04:00

Hey divas! What's up???? It's Monday night and I promised I would be back today to ask you guys some questions! And maybe give you a round up of the weekend! Maybe!!
Well let's start with the food just so FoodBuzz doesn't catch me only talking about "stuff"...
*um interjection, I'm watching DWTS. And Nicole and Derek are dancing to my all time favorite song, "First Time Ever I Saw Your Face" by Roberta Flack. Tears are in my eyes!!!!!*Ok back to it!

Let's start with Saturday- I went and ran some errands on Saturday morning in my neighborhood, I had to make a pit stop to get some coffee (mama doesn't run without her crack!) at Dunkins. I got my usual coffee that I get at Starbucks or Tim Horton's - caramel, skimmmmm (light on the skim!), and one sugar. UM GROSS ME OUT!!! It freakin' SUCKED! So I drove right by my Tim Hortons and turned around. And asked the girls at Time Hortons to fix my coffee. I think I made their day! They laughed for about five minutes and then made me a FRESH coffee for FREE! YUMMMMMY! It was SO good! Damn you Dunkin Donuts! And THANK YOU Tim Horton's! Those of you who don't have a Tim Horton's near you- you are missing out, it's delish! We only have one every few hundred miles in the States I think ; )

So I also wanted to show you my current breakfast obsession- positively the BEST instant oatmeal I've EVER had. EVER! (And I'm an oatmeal lover but prefer to make it myself) This was delish- the dried cranberries, the perfect amount of sweetness, holy orgasm at breakfast!!!! (Don't tell my co-workers.. they are old guys, they will have heart attacks)

This is super cheap too- $2!!!!! Hopefully someone out here has a Hannafords near them!
Ok, more of Saturday. I made another lasagna with the leftover polenta I had from Easter. This time I layered it with mushrooms and spinach instead of ground chicken. This was so delicious!!!!!! I made five servings of it- the other four went in my tupperware to save for later meals! Doesn't it look so good!!

Alright so Saturday night I was in charge of bringing my girls to MOVIE NIGHT at church. Can you guess what we saw?

I love this movie!
So there was pizza there but I prepped myself for the torture/temptation of eating tons of pizza by eating my veggie lasagnas before-hand. Once I got there, I did eat Sun Chips! Yummy! Then I "snuck" in a Jokerz bar- it's a vegan "snickers" bar. Good sub for the real thing! I loved it! So eating the Sun Chips and Jokerz bar didn't keep me from eating the girl's pizza crust... but hey- I avoided the whole piece! Haha!

OK let's get down to business here! I gotta come up with 7 questions and tag 7 of your lovely doves to find out MORE about!

1. What is your favorite article of clothing?
2. What is your dream vacation?
3. Have you ever danced in the rain?
4. If you could design your own dream house, what would it look like? big and spacious, small and cozy, condo, etc..
5. If you won the lottery would you quit your job and move to Tahiti?
6. If you could only drink one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
7. What would you name your first born son or daughter?

So in my previous post I also won the Kreativ Blogger award.. and I don't know WHO I can tag for both awards, so I'm going to tag as many of my lovely friends for BOTH as I can ;)

Andy- you have to do the Kreativ blog award! And you are optional on the questions! ;)
Jessie- do both girlfriend!
Rebeca- you too!
Katie 1- the original Diva!
Katie 2- the other Katie in my life!
Lauren- one of my international readers!
Miss Sweet Sarah- shes soooo beautiful!
Stef! Are you out there girl???
SOPHIA!!!!- I love you!!!!!
Jenny! She's so inspiring!
Anais- my lovely fellow Tim Horton's lover!
Christina- you get the questions ok?!
Kate! Girl where the heck are you??
Gabriela! Who can forget everyone's favorite little brasilera?
Well I think that about rounds it up! Hopefully you will all see this post! I'm really tired so I'm going to bed and I won't be able to comment on everyone's blogs.. lol sorry !!!! I'm sooooo tired right now!

Good night all!!!!!!

Tag.. I'm It!

2010-04-11T21:10:00.000-04:00

Happy Sunday night all! How are you lovelies? I'm doing ok, this is just a quick Sunday night post- thanks for listening to me rant by the way lol, even though I don't think I really had a huge point, it was good to get the question out there. So thanks for all your comments!

I got tagged/awarded in two different awardy-thingies! By the LOVELY AND AMAZING ANDY AND CHRISTINA! Thank you girlies!! *hugs*

1. Where was your first kiss?
I can't remember! Oh my!
2. What are you feeling right now this very moment?
Kinda tired!
3. If you could fly, but had to leave everything behind, would you? only if I could strap the Peanut and Joanna on my back!
4. What color are your socks?
barefoot right now!
5. Do you have a morning routine? What is it? 5:45 get up, 6-6:40 am workout, 6:50 shower, 7:15-7:30 chase the Peanut around to get her ready for school, 7:40 leave for work! same routine.. every darn day!
6. If the world was going to end tomorrow, how would you spend today?
in bed with my hubby!
7. What is your favorite thing about yourself?
my eyes... by far! oh and my tattoos
8. What is your favorite quality in others? i love how insightful bloggies are.. beautiful words, amazing stories, I'm so inspired by them!
9. What is the scariest thing you've encountered?
I got lost in Ocean City, MD when I was 9- it was SOOOOOOOOOOO scary!!
10. When do you feel alive? when I'm dancing...

The Kreativ Blogger Award Rules:

1. Post the award.
2. Thank and mention the person who gave you the award.
3. Pass the award on to seven blogs who you think embody the spirit of the Kreativ Blogger Award.
4. Name seven things about yourself that others don't know.
5. Don't forget to notify your seven Bloggers about their award and post a link to their blog.

Well, I don't have the badge that goes with this.. for some reason I can't "see" the picture? So we'll have to make do, or if someone has it and wants to send it to me? Anyone? *cricket**cricket*
I'm supposed to post 7 Things about me that NO ONE knows! Gee, this is HARD to DO- but I will give it a go!

1. Today my mother freely admitted that if my older sister was not there to help, she was not sure she would have been able to tell me and my twin sister apart... EVER.
2. I have five big scars on my chest and stomach- three are from a hernia surgery and the two on my chest are from a biopsy of a growth I had on my chest. Gross huh? I thought so too, so I usually tell people I got stabbed in a bar fight. ; )
3. I cry when I watch Criminal Minds. Then I have nightmares!
4. I don't really like mainstream novels, I prefer Christian Romance novels. All the sap, none of the sex. I'm not having any - why would I want to read about it??
5. I love reality TV, especially the random shows like Food Wars and anything about luxury homes and vacations
6. I spontaneously break out into song. I. Am. My. Mother. ARGH!!!!
7. Whenever I watch music videos I am disappointed because I KNOW if I were the director/producer, it would have been SO MUCH better!

So now I have to tag people for BOTH awards. Hmmmmmm, so many people to pick from!!

Hang tight dears... I'll go back to that tomorrow! I have to also think of some funky questions to ask people as well for the award from Andy. I'll let you all sweat it out...

This is like waiting for the results of the Peanut's science fair.. nail chewing...hair twirling... nervous pacing.. OH btw- she got 3rd place for her science project - so the wait for the results is OVA. Congrats to my baby- she's so smart!

I'll see you all tomorrow!

What Goes In...

2010-04-09T09:08:00.000-04:00

Hi everyone!!! How's it going? It's going over here I think! BTW- thank you SOOOO much for all your comments on my last post- I'm so happy to be a part of the lovely blogging community!!! : )

Not too much is happening in my neck of the woods- we've had a couple of great days weather-wise and now it is back to "normal" for spring time here. I think. Chilly, rainy, and dreary. Oh how the rain brings down my mood!!!!! Does that happen to anyone else? I don't get grumpy- just blah!

Well like I said, there isn't too much going on here you know? But I have some stuff to share.. so let's start at the very beginning, a VERY good place to start!
(anyone??? you know that??)

There was a hearty discussion going on over there at Hangry Pants with Heather regarding school lunches and who is ultimately responsible for providing healthy school lunches for children and what really is the defintion of a healthy school lunch. For me? It all starts at home! I feel like for the most part, we food bloggers are in an elite group for knowing what is "healthy" and what is considered "junk" for kids. However, there are parents who WANT to provide healthy lunches and foods for their kids and can't really afford to.. whether that's because the food budget doesn't allow for it or there are many mouths too feed and not enough to go around. It IS cheaper to buy a bag of Dorititos than a bag of Cinnamon Apple Chips. It IS cheaper to buy a box Stop & Shop dino shaped chicken nuggets than a box of Cascadian Farms chicken breasts. Reading about the school lunches on Heather's site made me remember about how when I was growing up, we got free lunches because my father was either un-employed or under-employed for a huge chunk of time. With four kids to feed, mac& cheese and cereal were staples in our diets. It's also where my disordered thoughts about food started kicking in. A portion of my Advanced Placement Chemistry class was spent learning about nutrition (I guess my teacher thought we should know about it? I have no clue why we did this..) and we measured calories in food. Suddenly I knew how many calories were in that free calzone I was eating. The tater tots. The nachos with nasty orange cheese. Gross. Me. Out. And I started obsessing over everything that went in my mouth. I gave away half my food and only drank skim milk and ate the piece of fruit that came with the lunch. I lost a good 15 pounds in a very short amount of time. I brushed it off as "growing into myself" but inside I was panicking... how could my mom let us eat this crap??? Why were we eating this crap??
I don't believe we had much of a choice. It was a financial burden lifted not to have to get four lunches together everyday and only having to worry about dinner.

Being a single mom myself when the Peanut was in school I had the chance to apply for free lunches for her and I chose not to. Instead I added money to her account and everytime she got a lunch menu, we picked four days where she could buy lunch and that was it. Does it suck trying to make sure I have enough money for breakfast lunch and dinner for her and myself? Yup- especially because she's a pretty picky eater! Have you ever met a kid who doesn't like bread? Well, if you have met the Peanut, that's her! Won't touch a sandwich! But we've made it work and although I feel guilty sometimes because she has the SAME lunches almost every day- it's the best we can do for now!
here is a peek inside the Peanut's lunch bag..

Crackers, cheese, ham rolled up. Yogurt, fruit, and some goldfish! Yummy!
The Peanut's digestive system does a whole lot better with out a ton of wheat and processed foods. Did you know that? She is the first person I know who functions much better on an organic diet! ; )
I think we would all function better on an all organic diet.. haha! But on pay-days, that's when we get the "good stuff" and in between, we get the cheap stuff. Pick your battles folks! So did my long-winded post have a point? Maybe not, but I needed a story behind why I took a picture of her lunch box. Ha!

Seriously though, anyone care to jump in the discussion about where nutrition starts? Home or school? Parents should be teaching about nutrition or leave it up to health class and after school trips to Dairy Queen?

Well that's all for now dears.. I have a ton of other things to talk about, but I'm planning to do a weekend post as well, so look out for that! And TONIGHT I'll break the computer out at home and get officially caught up on everything! I know Christina left me an award a while back.. so I have to put that up. And I have a couple of funny stories from this week as well.. I didn't want to stuff it into ONE post..

Easter And Exhaustion

2010-04-06T10:04:00.000-04:00

Hello dear ones.. it's Tuesday and I seemed to have missed my usual Saturday and Monday post. I am so sorry! I've been a little "unplugged" from the world lately. I'm just really tired all of a sudden! Bed time is creeping in earlier and earlier- which might not be a bad thing! But who knows why...

So Easter weekend you say? What did we do? Well, alot happened! First of all on Saturday, the Peanut got to go to the zoo with her Aunties and my nephew Caiden! Lucky!!!! She had a blast and didn't come home until about 8 that night. Party ANIMAL! What did I do while she was gone? I went to a salsa workshop with my dance class in Cranston. As you remember last week we had the "Historic Flooding" here in Rhode Island and the dance studio we went to was literally a stone's throw away from the Pawtuxet river. Brilliant! I got a couple of good pics of the roaring river.. Still going strong!

This place caught my eye though... soft serve!!!!! Yummy!

The class was absolutely AMAZING! Well worth the extra money to go and spend a beautiful afternoon inside for! I loved it and learned A LOT! I also appreciated how confident my dance teacher is in my dance skills- I'm only in the second level for dance class now and when it came time to split up into "beginner/intermediate" (my level) and "intermediate/advanced" (ummmm not me!) he made me go into the advanced class. Ego boost! It was a little harder, but I worked my tail off and did it. Good stuff you know?
So I don't know if you guys may know, but the last couple of weeks have been rough food-wise for me. I've had to talk myself into eating a lot of times and working out like a looney some days. Not cool. I'm a work in progress though I think and some days are better than others. Well anyway- I considered Saturday after class a success because I managed to talk myself INTO (and not out of) having soft serve frozen yogurt. With chocolate sprinkles. All while day-dreaming by the Pawtuxet. It is a small success, but because I can't remember the last time I let myself indulge like that- it's a good one. Baby steps my friends.. I told my C about it, who said I needed to have six more. He thinks I'm too skinny.. lol

So Easter came and so did the Easter bunny! I forgot to take a picture of what he brought the Peanut, but he brought me Starburst jelly beans! I love those things! Oh "Easter bunny" knows me so well!
But here we are in all our fancy dolled up glory! (please ignore my extreme whiteness- mama needs to lay out!!!)

It was the usual routine for Easter- church, food, egg hunt.. and nap time!
I made a lovely lovely dish that I borrowed from Christina (thanks girl!)- a polenta lasagna. I made mine with ground chicken, polenta rounds, Muir Glen marinara sauce, and "rice mozzarella cheese". I sprinkled nutritional yeast over the top of it and baked away. This is pretty simple to make I gotta tell ya! On Saturday I sauteed the polenta rounds and browned the chicken and set it aside. Then on Sunday I layered the ingredients. And baked it. Wow. So intensely hard!!!! Ha!
Here is a picture of it uncooked. I forgot to take a picture of it cooked!

EVERYONE loved it! I was as surprised as my mother was! I think the key thing was, I didn't mention the fact that the cheese was not "real" cheese. :) No one noticed. Shhhhhhh!!!! I thought it was amazing! The "cheese" melted like it was supposed to and did not taste fake at all. GOOD DEAL! Adding this one to my permanent recipe book in my head!
I did have to buy that cheese at Whole Foods though (argh- so expensive!) I also bought some Amazing Grass products to try at the same time.. only becuase I came across a blog post of Christina's (girl I blogger-creeped you this weekend..) where she mentions that Amazing Grass has all but rid her of chronic headaches. If you know me, I always have a freakin' head ache. So I got some to sample see if I liked it enough to buy it on a regular basis.

I tried this bar yesterday afternoon. Despite its questionable looks and odd taste at times, it was quite delicious. And the best part was it kept me full for hours- which is completely weird. I eat like a cat- only a little bit at a time and I eat something almost every couple of hours. I think my metabolism is all out of whack though because no matter what kind of meal I eat, I'm hungry again three hours later- whether it's a huge burger and fries or it's a yogurt sprinkled with granola. Strange! But anyway- although the taste was a bit weird for me- I kinda liked it! It wasn't too bad! I have some of the chocolate "amazing meal" stuff so I'll give that a whirl sometime this week as well.

Well anyway, I have to get back to work. You know, so I can do. Work. *gasp*

I'll be catching up on your blogs soooooooooon. Tomorrow night probably- I have dance class TONIGHT! Whoooooo!

Rock The Boat

2010-03-31T21:56:00.000-04:00

Happy hump day everyone!

So who's been watching the news about New England lately? Can you see the insanity that is Rhode Island? We are literally floating away over here! Let's go for a round-up in what's happening. My boss and two of my co-workers live in Fall River, Dartmouth, and Assonet. All three towns are completely closed and drowning. No way in, and hardly ANY way out! My sister lives in West Warwick. Right on the Pawtuxet River. Her neighborhood was evacuated immediately due to the imminent flood waters coming. Her boyfriend stayed behind; presumably with a six pack and some friends- and a canoe to pump water out of the house! Crazy right?! Well, as you know I said in my last post that we were lucky that we escaped all the flood waters because, well my house is on a slight hill and we typically don't get alot of "flooding" in our area.

Check this out!!!!

That is my backyard!!!! Holy crap!

The water was being pumped out of our basement over here...

Isn't that crazy? My dad built a "trench" for the water to flow down and around the shed in the backyard. He's so crafty... lol

Tomorrow I have to head to Cranston, RI- which, if you have seen the news is the hardest hit city in all this. I'm hoping I can get there in under 3 hours, because they closed ALL major routes going in and out of Cranston! Every back road is a "minor" route which is also closed. Go figure! Cross your fingers for me!!!

Hey.. I actually cooked tonight! Can you believe it? I feel so lost in the kitchen lately! Tonight's dish featured these ingredients.. I've never tried Red Quinoa before and I was pleasently surprised at how chewy it was, but it was awesome. I liked it.. : )

I added corn, broccoli, tomato sauce, Italian seasoning, garlic salt, and pepper, and SHRIMP... it was meh. I liked it but it was forgettable. Sad really. Don't try to make it ok? It will tide me over for a few meals though.. lol

Well, since we are still recovering from the great flood, I'm not sure what we are up to this weekend! I have a salsa workshop to go to, but it's in Cranston (aka. flood city..) so I'm not sure if everything will be cleaned up or not yet!

So, cross your fingers for me twice!!!! Happy Easter to all of you! I have a couple of menu ideas for my own dinner- as my big Italian family *loves* to make things I can't eat! Dang it!!

Way Back In The Day...

2010-03-29T08:59:00.000-04:00

Oh man, I wish I could say it is a Happy Monday like I usually do- but sadly, I don't think it is! At least in NE, it's cold, miserable, and POURING. I'm glad that my house is not in a low-lying area, otherwise we would be piling up sandbags and moving everything from the basement...like other people in my area have had to do. There is seriously THAT much rain!

I'm here at work though, waiting for 5 p.m. to roll around. I feel like I was just here..

Ok, so what did I do over the weekend? I know, you are waiting with bated breath... well I had my niece over and we went to see a show together on Sunday! Yay! But first, I wanted to tell Katie that I tried one of the Gardein "meals"... she LOVES these and when I saw them in Whole Foods you know I grabbed one up!

Can you tell I hated it????
I know these little buggers contain wheat and I thought I would report that this - was worth the headache later on that night! It tasted SOOOOOOOO good! I loved it! It won't be an all the time thing (because they contain wheat and that gives me a big headache)- but definitely a treat! YUM! Yay for Katie for turning me onto these babies!
OK- so the show!
It was at my dad's theatre- yes my DAD'S. He is the President of a Theatre company in town and a few times a year they put on these awesome shows in their new "space". This was my first time going to a show here and it did NOT let me down! Here we/they are before the show! They complained because the sun was in their eyes.. haha.

Here was the show.. all about a 1940's Radio Show, set right around Christmas time.. so cool! The music was great, acting was amazing! Loved it!

Anyway, that about rounds up the weekend. I hope everyone had an AWESOME ONE! I know once I got out of work on Saturday mine went by SO FAST! I can't wait to be able to sleep in this coming Saturday. Easter weekend, no skating, no work, no NOTHING! Yay!

Hope everyone has a great Monday- stay dry if you are in NE!!

Much Ado About Nothing

2010-03-26T16:49:00.000-04:00

Ohhhhhhhhh Happy Friday!
I am sooooo glad it's Friday! Can you tell? But let's not get overly excited here, I don't have a great weekend planned so far! I am still waiting to hear if I have to go into work tomorrow or not. I am stuck here until 6 pm already tonight (OT though.. so I'll stay all night if I have to); but I don't know about tomorrow morning. I don't want to miss the Peanut's last skating lesson, but if I must make the big bucks, I must come in and work!

So far, I have literally been twiddling my thumbs all day today- so the idea of coming into the office tomorrow in my pjs and twiddling my thumbs (blogging, reading, etc.) totally appeals to me. Free coffee? Free donuts? Paid double time? I'm in!

Well last night the Peanut had a science fair. Remember the science project we were working on? Well, it didn't work out! We had to go to Plan B. Instead of growing bacteria in food and watching fuzz grow, we got no results and decided to change it at the last second! But it all worked out I think!

She did a project about Motion and Force- it was so cute! I filmed her and my niece rollerskating last weekend and then she did a Power Point presentation on what motion and force are. It was awesome. I can't believe at 7 she knows how to do full on PP stuff- I'm SURE NONE OF US at the age of 7 could do that kind of stuff on the computer. I don't even think Oregon Trail was out when I was 7- and that was the first computer game I had as a kid. Think I was still playing pac-man on those Apple dinosaurs. Haha! Anyway, here are a few shots of the night.

Look in this picture.. all the way to the right, HOT DAD alert! WOWOWOWOW!!!

I tried to get a picture from the front, less of the side, but alas, in attempts to NOT look like a crazy stalker- I stopped trying and just enjoyed the VIEW! Whoever he is married to is LUCKY!
Anyway- it was an enjoyable experience and I was really proud of the Peanut. She did SUCH a good job!
Here was another interesting project about bacteria in water. This girl pulled samples from everywhere, bottled water, tap water, resturants, the TOILET. According to her samples... it's safer to drink out of a well then a water fountain and then don't even get me started on the resturant drinking water. Can you see which one it is? Lucianos???????? According to her sample, I would rather be drinking out of the TOILET than from there!

Interesting isn't it???

Well, since this is a food blog, I guess I will share with you one of my Whole Foods purchases- Enjoy Life bagels. Now you know how big a typical bagel should be right? Yes, well these are tiny itty bitty little bagels. This was the only purchase I made where I felt cheated out of money! Look at this thing! In this case, size TOTALLY matters! I compared to my work badge which is about the size of a playing card.

CARB OUTRAGE! It still tasted yummy, but I was still miffed over how small it was.

This yogurt made up for it... it was SOOOOOOOOOO tasty! I loved it! Please note I have been chained to my desk for the last week and so all my pictures are taken there. Haha.

These are the days where I really miss my baby! I haven't been feeling up to snuff mentally and emotionally lately (I know you guys can't tell because I crack jokes all over..) but when the spring time hits and I think about stuff like baseball and walks and going out for ice cream at midnight, I MISS my Charlie. Fortunately, I drink out of this mug all the time- his fav.. and now mine. Next month is our anniversary, we'll see what kind of fun I can come up with for us over the phone. Oh God. That sounded so gross.. lol sorry! Bad jokes on a Friday!!!!!!!!

What are your plans for the weekend??

Mid-Week Horrors

2010-03-23T21:45:00.000-04:00

Well, not really horrors. But fudge, it's almost Wednesday and I feel like it should be Friday already! At least I want it to be Friday.. How is YOUR week going?

So I never told you about Sunday.. or yesterday. I feel like I haven't posted in forever so I think I should start posting more often!

Here goes everything!

Sunday I woke up to this!

So I put on these! (these sneakers are actually circa 2003... kickin' it old school!)and went for another bike ride! I did do pilates to warm up the old legs and get them stretched out before I went riding. I covered a good 3-4 miles on the bike. I need to warm up I think before I take the 18 mile round trip trek to work and back!
I listened to some tunes along the way..

Before I left though, I did have a snack.. the snack of champions.

Juicy-juice and cocoa puffs. Would you expect something better from me??

Don't worry dears, my breakfast was a super one to make up for the fact that my pre-workout snack was a less than stellar one.

In this "mess" was rice yogurt I found at Whole Foods topped with gluten free granola and a blob of Dark Chocolate Dreams. Pretty darn good! Plus these little thingies on the side:

These are freeze dried apples I found at Stop & Stop. They look like this.. so tasty!

I wasn't sure what to have for lunch so I decided to go with more Whole Foods goods. I have no desire to be cooking up a storm or dreaming up recipes, or shoot, doing anything in the kitchen when it's nice outside. Therefore, I shall eat these and be happy!

Here we have veggie meatballs topped with Muir Glen marinara sauce and "nooch". YUM! Along with some random Spagetti like things. They legit tasted like Spagetti-O's.

Well that about rounds up my day, I spent Sunday night doing my usual thing- prepping veggies and fruit for the rest of the week. I usually cut up a couple of days worth of things so that I don't have an excuse not to get my veggies in at lunch. Here is a small sampling of said task. : )

Soooooooo it's 10:30, I think I'm going to head to B-E-D! I've been watching the show the Good Wife and I start each week saying to myself, I'm going to go to bed early tonight.. and I end up getting SUCKED IN. If you don't watch it, it's really good!!!!
Have a fab night peeps!!